So here's the deal. School is almost done... like a few weeks and I have no long term plans for the future.
I know when I get home Im gonna be grilled on it till I can't take it anymore. But its only because my family cares enough to be concerned about it... but to be honest I've always wanted to do something that mattered to a lot of people... something special. It maybe conceited but I've always thought there was something special out there for me like I was meant to do something important, big or expressive...
... and maybe thats why I feel empty these days. With the loss of the band ... especially since were about to get going somewhere... Im feeling like I've lost that chance for something big.
do you guys think I could have a future drawing comic books and making a living out of it... be honest... cuz some do.. some don't, and well if some don't then I don't have a chance.. its hard thing to get into. Which is why Im starting my own online thinger with this final fantasy 7 fan art thing Im creating and then my own Shadowops idea as well as my Lazarus Outbreak, Revelations and This Can't Be Good idea. I have a lot of time now if I just got really really focused.
Theres a line in one of the new Mudvayne songs that says "you grow up to give up" I hope that hasn't happened to me ... I don't want to give up on dreaming and hoping and all that wonder and fun that I had. Buuuuuut the way the world works now is Money is the meaning of life in that you have to have it to live ... to survive and live comfortably. Which means that the majority of people have to work jobs they hate to buy shit they don't need... hehehe thanks tyler durden.
On another note... Sunday I went to a bar and saw Wrestlemania and had a good beer filled good food filled time and the bartender girls were super cool to me ... which made me think they might have been hitting on me.. but then I realized bar-tenders are supposed to be nice to quiet guys they see so that they can get a good tip. Well mission accomplished I gave her a good tip. She wrote on the back of our bill.. hope to see you guys again? but I mean hey if there was a phone number there I would have called it. I think she was just trying to make regulars of us. ah well.
I guess thats all for now
peace, love and soul
Scattershot
Music: Bon Jovi - Blaze of Glory
Mood: Im tired... more coffee. But I've had soo much so far.
mmmm coffee... I have a problem.
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Okay Hemp-cats here are some of the pre-lim sketches and stuff for the final fantasy 7 project I was talkin aboot.
Cloud
Barret
Reno of the Turks
suggestions... fer it.. again it... totally ruined the characters.
Disclaimer: I do not claim copyright to these characters.. this is merly fan art.
I know when I get home Im gonna be grilled on it till I can't take it anymore. But its only because my family cares enough to be concerned about it... but to be honest I've always wanted to do something that mattered to a lot of people... something special. It maybe conceited but I've always thought there was something special out there for me like I was meant to do something important, big or expressive...
... and maybe thats why I feel empty these days. With the loss of the band ... especially since were about to get going somewhere... Im feeling like I've lost that chance for something big.
do you guys think I could have a future drawing comic books and making a living out of it... be honest... cuz some do.. some don't, and well if some don't then I don't have a chance.. its hard thing to get into. Which is why Im starting my own online thinger with this final fantasy 7 fan art thing Im creating and then my own Shadowops idea as well as my Lazarus Outbreak, Revelations and This Can't Be Good idea. I have a lot of time now if I just got really really focused.
Theres a line in one of the new Mudvayne songs that says "you grow up to give up" I hope that hasn't happened to me ... I don't want to give up on dreaming and hoping and all that wonder and fun that I had. Buuuuuut the way the world works now is Money is the meaning of life in that you have to have it to live ... to survive and live comfortably. Which means that the majority of people have to work jobs they hate to buy shit they don't need... hehehe thanks tyler durden.
On another note... Sunday I went to a bar and saw Wrestlemania and had a good beer filled good food filled time and the bartender girls were super cool to me ... which made me think they might have been hitting on me.. but then I realized bar-tenders are supposed to be nice to quiet guys they see so that they can get a good tip. Well mission accomplished I gave her a good tip. She wrote on the back of our bill.. hope to see you guys again? but I mean hey if there was a phone number there I would have called it. I think she was just trying to make regulars of us. ah well.
I guess thats all for now
peace, love and soul
Scattershot
Music: Bon Jovi - Blaze of Glory
Mood: Im tired... more coffee. But I've had soo much so far.
mmmm coffee... I have a problem.
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Okay Hemp-cats here are some of the pre-lim sketches and stuff for the final fantasy 7 project I was talkin aboot.
Cloud
Barret
Reno of the Turks
suggestions... fer it.. again it... totally ruined the characters.
Disclaimer: I do not claim copyright to these characters.. this is merly fan art.