going through some very rough stuff, my body and mind feals like momma earth today and like momma earth i need to have an earthquake (we had a 4.8) to let out a bit of pressure my job and family are screwing me over hard and i just want to tell them Fuck Off! i cant depend on you. yet you demand everything from me. my job has given me this mystery garnishment of 3/4 of my pay. my mother is demanding i take in her junk and my fresh out of prison brother i cant feed myself how am i gonna feed him and he's violent and i dont need it . people dont ask me they just throw stuff at me. assumeing i will take care of it and squeeze it in. and make due. i can't anymore. my body and mind cant deal with it. 
i am not in good shape and i need rest and i need to heal and take care myself i am not being selfish by this. i really need it. for once in my life i want to do what I want. not what i am told to do. mom will argue with me over 25 dollars for food but wont even question giving my brothers her car or her house ect. (i'm the only girl) i just want a fair break.
i am not in good shape and i need rest and i need to heal and take care myself i am not being selfish by this. i really need it. for once in my life i want to do what I want. not what i am told to do. mom will argue with me over 25 dollars for food but wont even question giving my brothers her car or her house ect. (i'm the only girl) i just want a fair break.
As far as family goes, uummmm....well, they call me whenever they need something--usually money. My brother and sister are the only ones I really have a relationship with. It's so strange, I'm a stranger in my own family.
[Edited on Jun 28, 2005 10:09AM]