saturn1

i talked to the jason. i like the jason. i think i'm going to pittsburgh to hopefully see him. he really should be here in detroit so i can drive there now. fucking geographic boundaries!

that whole i love the 80's thing on vh1 made me re-discover my obsession with david gahan. i can't quit fucking playing 'never let me down again' and 'in your room' ... evil plotting bastards.

this year is going to be weird. it's going to start weird, at least. my ex-boyfriend {who has always lived out of state, where i used to live} for some unknown {well, i i KNOW the reason, but you know} applied to my school, got accepted and is moving here on sunday. that's totally freaking me out. i wanted this year to not be about stress. i have a feeling that won't happen with him around. i have resolved to just kicking his ass if he gets too intrusive, because i mean, i've been trying to maintain the friendship, but he's still acting like i'm a gotdamn sinning fornicator when i go out with other people even though we've not been together since early spring of this year. and even though i probably am a gotdamn sinning fornicator, the only person making me feel guilty for anything is me. i've been pretty straight with him i don't know why he can't reciprocate that.

ok i may need to install a mini-bar or something in my room to get through this, now that i think about it. the jason tells me it'll be ok & he's a smart person so i'll wait on the vodka.

christ is going be home soon and shannie-pants is emerging from her eccentric-art-den, which means nothing to you but it's lots of flirting with fun heterosexual girls for me.

so, yeah. pretty much.