sarcasticsusie

hi. so, this week has been most interesting. started off just fine, but then came home to a post on my facebook wall from my father. i'm not going to go into detail about the contents of it, but basically it made me feel like shit. it was very one sided, much the phone calls we used to have years ago. we are pretty much removed from each other nowadays and honestly, i think it is for the best. he always brings me down. don't get me wrong, though, i would love to have a relationship with him. that is my struggle. so, i decided, after much contemplation and some friends' opinions, to message him through facebook. i'm feeling a little better, but now i am anticipating a phone call from him bc i enclosed my number. so, who knows what will happen, but i can't keep losing sleep over it anymore. it's just not healthy. i'm a grown woman and at a point in my life where i can only have positive relationships. my emotions can no longer be put through the ringer, so to say. so, that's that.

in other news, i'm getting a tat today!!! it's pretty emo, actually, lol. it's a song lyric or title from Joy Division, who i adore, but it's going to be in Italian, which makes it somewhat unique. it will be going down my inner forearm and will read, "love will tear us apart" / "l'amore ci far a pezzi" and then will end with this heart near my wrist

and this is just hot.