Puh. Yeah. WHAT a difference a day makes.
You don't answer your phone. You don't return my messages.
I called Joe and finally got a hold of him around 2 am. I had hoped, of course, to see him, but I already knew from the clock that it wasn't going to happen. Apparently he was going to go out with his sister but she never...
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You don't answer your phone. You don't return my messages.
I called Joe and finally got a hold of him around 2 am. I had hoped, of course, to see him, but I already knew from the clock that it wasn't going to happen. Apparently he was going to go out with his sister but she never...
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Late last night and early into the morning, we lay together and while he was kissing every inch of my body, I suddenly felt the word "love" almost drift past my lips. It completely caught me by suprise. It was this physical wind that just flew through me and sparked. It's never been like that. It's always been a logical thing I've planned out, and...
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kreatinkaos:
Uh oh .. be carefull 
hellstorm:
I always find an interesting piece of advice to be "Hope for the best, prepare for the worst"
also enjoy it while you can!
also enjoy it while you can!
Whaaa... was I just rejected by Tyler so he can hang out with his other friends and get high?... I just wanted some hot tea and converstation... this feels... akward.
Whatever. I'm no stranger to solitude.
Whatever. I'm no stranger to solitude.
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fastboyent:
I am sorry for your misfortune. I hope that all goes better.
As for falling in love, I know what you mean, Mine was four and a half years, and I was scared out of my mind...I still am, so I know what you mean. I found that if it is real love though and not lust, then your heart will lead the way, and there will be no questions asked, no worries, none of that.
As for falling in love, I know what you mean, Mine was four and a half years, and I was scared out of my mind...I still am, so I know what you mean. I found that if it is real love though and not lust, then your heart will lead the way, and there will be no questions asked, no worries, none of that.
kreatinkaos:
Time to replace him 
I totally just bleached my hair and cut the front. Just because. Look at the avatar.
I fucking love visual change.
I fucking love visual change.
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fastboyent:
i like it...looks very cute
hellstorm:
looks good.....visual change to represent a change in your life?
Joe is joining the Marines.
I'll explain this further when I feel like it.
"But nevermind that. You can't always find the perfect guy. Just one that will stay with a crazy woman."
My whole life is blowing up in front of my face. So what's making me handle this so well?
Christ almighty God in heaven, I hate the armed forces.
I'll explain this further when I feel like it.
"But nevermind that. You can't always find the perfect guy. Just one that will stay with a crazy woman."
My whole life is blowing up in front of my face. So what's making me handle this so well?
Christ almighty God in heaven, I hate the armed forces.
kreatinkaos:
He might have been planning on joining the marines for a while before he met you 
dane_valek:
This is gonna sound silly, and maybe I just missed this detail, but: Which boy is joe?
I think that we all handle things better when eveything is going to hell. If nothing else, because we expect more to go wrong. That just makes it seem like what we've got going on is so very much less than it is.
I think that we all handle things better when eveything is going to hell. If nothing else, because we expect more to go wrong. That just makes it seem like what we've got going on is so very much less than it is.
I am simply ridiculous.
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I AM IN SUCH A GOOD FUCKING MOOD.
I decided instead of flat out leaving college after this semester, I'm going to chill out and take 2 classes next semester and 1 or 2 in the summer. I just have this creeping suspicion that by about March I'd regret not being in school. Needless to say, my parents are thrilled.
I went to class today...
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I decided instead of flat out leaving college after this semester, I'm going to chill out and take 2 classes next semester and 1 or 2 in the summer. I just have this creeping suspicion that by about March I'd regret not being in school. Needless to say, my parents are thrilled.
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kreatinkaos:
Good choice 
Well, I had hoped for a little more input, but I didn't expect it. I don't really communicate with people through SuicideGirls. 
Well... to add to my stress, in short, I need to leave college. It could be a bad thing to impose these many changes, or it could be for the better. This isn't sudden, either- I nearly left last spring but ended dropping...
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Well... to add to my stress, in short, I need to leave college. It could be a bad thing to impose these many changes, or it could be for the better. This isn't sudden, either- I nearly left last spring but ended dropping...
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kreatinkaos:
You could allways stay on as a part time student , I'll have to go check out your other blog
kreatinkaos:
Ok I just read your other site , I can tell you that I do know what you are going through , many student go through a period where they change their major several times . Initially I was a biomedical engineering major , Even earned a bachelors of science degree in that major , I was not happy and ended up returning to school and earned a juris doctorate and then was eventually admitted to the bar in California , Connecticut , and Washington D.C. , now I seldom practice law as I run R&D programs for Lockheed Martin as well as running two of my own companies .
You may be confused and stressed out about what and where you want to go in life , but try to stick with school for now and just change your major when you decide what you really want from life . You are allready on an emotional roller coaster with the sudden changes in your love life , so just try to unwind from that scene while your thoughts become clearer .
You may be confused and stressed out about what and where you want to go in life , but try to stick with school for now and just change your major when you decide what you really want from life . You are allready on an emotional roller coaster with the sudden changes in your love life , so just try to unwind from that scene while your thoughts become clearer .
Nope, still working on that shedding.
What started out, at least I thought, as a mutual desicion is becoming one-sided. Tyler is tore up. I still see him once a day. I love hanging out with him and our friends, but it's a mess when we're alone. He still says he loves me, he still kisses me, and he bought me flowers. The problem is......
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What started out, at least I thought, as a mutual desicion is becoming one-sided. Tyler is tore up. I still see him once a day. I love hanging out with him and our friends, but it's a mess when we're alone. He still says he loves me, he still kisses me, and he bought me flowers. The problem is......
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kreatinkaos:
If I was any good at dealing with relationship problems I would comment on your situation , but my love life is a fatal train wreck right now
I should have used the spinach in the taco's
I should have used the spinach in the taco's
dane_valek:
"Why do you get all the love in the world?"
-Nine Inch Nails.
Sorry, that was just the first thing that popped in my head.
Seriously, though. I think some guys are just too overly emotional. There's a happy medium that penis-bearing folk do not understand nor appreciate, for the most part. I hate to talk in generalizations, but I feel somewhat justified in this area. Couple that with the fact that he's not been in another relationship (as you previously stated) and you've got an almost perfect formula for over-attachment, and self-loathing.
Well, I'm talking too much. By the way, I'm sending some love your way, and some hope that things resolve wonderfully.
-Nine Inch Nails.
Sorry, that was just the first thing that popped in my head.
Seriously, though. I think some guys are just too overly emotional. There's a happy medium that penis-bearing folk do not understand nor appreciate, for the most part. I hate to talk in generalizations, but I feel somewhat justified in this area. Couple that with the fact that he's not been in another relationship (as you previously stated) and you've got an almost perfect formula for over-attachment, and self-loathing.
Well, I'm talking too much. By the way, I'm sending some love your way, and some hope that things resolve wonderfully.
Aparently my skin wasn't completely shed yet.
Tyler and I decided it's for the best to take a break. We've been going out for a solid year and 7 months. I still want to marry him, even if it's in ten years. But I just don't know if what we both want the best for our own selves, personally, is compatible for marriage.
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Tyler and I decided it's for the best to take a break. We've been going out for a solid year and 7 months. I still want to marry him, even if it's in ten years. But I just don't know if what we both want the best for our own selves, personally, is compatible for marriage.
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kreatinkaos:
Sometimes you need time apart to figure out what you really want in life
Don't struggle so much. Time will tell, but only if you be still and listen.