sarahhassars

Late last night and early into the morning, we lay together and while he was kissing every inch of my body, I suddenly felt the word "love" almost drift past my lips. It completely caught me by suprise. It was this physical wind that just flew through me and sparked. It's never been like that. It's always been a logical thing I've planned out, and last night it just bubbled up. I think the only reason I didn't say it was because it was so sudden...
Staying up until a few fleeting hours before my classes start, staying there with you while you whimper whenever I move an inch, and falling asleep only to delightfully dream of you, and then waking up to lay in your arms and watch you sleep more hours away, yet still knowing you are going to exit my reality (not the planet, not my life- just my reality)... it's all worth it.
My friends are telling me don't let it happen, don't get yourself hurt, but I have never been one to shelter myself from pain. Knowing you and discovering who you are, meeting someone so completely different and appreciating each other all the same- I will take all the heartache I know is headed for me.

One day before he leaves, I'll need to breathe those three short words out into the open.

I had said, "I hope I'm not falling in love". What a difference a few days make.