saoirsemckenna

Shitting shit. Fucking pointless pile of shit. Fucking hell of shit hell wanktosserwads. I'm not entirely happy with my long distance "relationship" and how little this man is actually doing to get anything done. How many times must I say I don't think we should be in a bloody relationship before he realizes I'm serious?! I mean unfortunately I can't just cut him off because he's the father of my baby and I am not so cruel as to deprive her of her loving father just because he makes me want to SMASH EVERYTHING!!! He's still a good dad. Fuck. It would almost be easier if he just didn't want to be in her life.

OK. So yeah, having problems with the boy. He is making me angry and because I don't want to "cheat" on anyone, plus I have a young baby who I can't just leave with a sitter, I haven't had any sex fun or any sort of fun of that nature for a year, and only once in the past ... year and a half. I'm not ok with that. I'm a sexual person and I need to be in a relationship where there is good sex. And of course with someone I don't fight with and I have other similarities with.

Anyhow. I just don't want to hear his excuses anymore! I can't wait until football season is on again so that we can at least talk about that instead of his lack of pay, and his horrible ability to work for people who end up not paying him. After two years he can't really keep blaming other people. It can't always be someone else's fault.

I want to be actually really actually single. I want to date again and well you know. Things.