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In twenty years of working, I've never left a job without giving notice...until now. I know it's very unprofessional, and I feel like a heel for doing it, but I honestly couldn't stand another minute in that toxic environment, even if I knew I'd be leaving. It's not something I want to do again. Yes, I do have another job lined up, and I'll be...
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Just got done having my very dear friends @dicentra and @bonderone here for a week's visit. Love you guys, and can't wait to see you again :)

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I've always been a proponent of the phrase "actions speak louder than words", but it seems that actions tend to hurt more. Sometimes, I just want words so that I'm spared the pain of someone's actions.
rudeboy71:
I agree. Me saying I'm gonna run your ass over with a car has to hurt a lot less than actually running you over with a car.
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I apologize. We have unleashed a monster that we won't be able to control for a couple of years.

rudeboy71:
Fuck Drumpf! He will never be my president.
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In two years of therapy, and tons and tons of self reflection, I still have no earthly idea where my fear of abandonment comes from. Both of my parents have been around my entire life. I was never left behind, or made to fend for myself. I was given moral support, and tought self reliance.
Yet, many of my fears center around being left out,...
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rudeboy71:
So if you think of yourself as a plant that's been watered it's whole life, your biggest fear would be that you would not get watered one day, mostly because you've been taken care of your whole life. As an adult you would realize that you might not be able to get the support you need from others. If you had supplied this support for yourself there would be no fear of wether you do or don't get, emotionally, what you need from others.
sanitariumlxix:
@rudeboy71 Perhaps. Though I pride myself on my independence. Maybe that was misplaced, I dunno.  Or maybe I'm uncomfortable with change. That could come from the same place, I guess. 
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Last night I was in a very bad place. It's been a while since I've felt that bad, and it was probably worse.

Earlier in the day, I had a trigger. A run in with an old, unrequited love interest, who was with another guy. We were cordial, and the encounter was brief. But it still haunted me the rest of the day, and even...
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rudeboy71:
It's not actually self centered. We all think like that. It isn't possible for any one of us to think any differently. We are the centers of our own universes. In many ways, your more normal than not.
dicentra:
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