samyouwell

I'm back...... Another SG phoenix.

Fuckin' myspace... shite! Gimme the warm embrace of the SG lovelies any day of the week!

...ok story so far.... I met a girl on myspace in a desperate bid to establish social connections in San Jose. We talked, for hours an hours, it was like we were made for each other, soo much in common.... also we're both recently out of messed up relationships.... both kinda damaged. We agreed to meet up, got drunk, couldn't keep our hands off each other. Though managed to resist the dirty deed, try to make it worth something when we did. That night we slept in each others arms and for the first time in a long time i felt at peace.

On wednesday it was my birthday, she was invited to a meal to meet my uncle. But fell sick and couldn't make it, the real problem was that she didn't let me know, just vanished. No reply to texts, emails, nothing.
I talked to her on fri, she appologised i forgave, we arranged to meet sat morning. She did it again, this time i got a bit arsey asked if she was a mentalist cos i like her too much to be arsed with games.... her retort?
"i really do like you but the relationship i just got out of left me witha lot of baggage and no matter how much i like you i need time to heal or i scared ill either hurt you or winding up hurting my self."

I don't mind being hurt, pain makes pleasure sweeter, but i'd never see her hurt.

So there you go. Truth be known, i'm sad, but happy 'cos i know where i stand. The not knowing on the eve of my birthday celebrations was killing me.

I can't help blaming myself, when she was awol, i tried too hard to check she was ok, probably smothered her.

Please i insist on comments and thoughts from the SG collective.

It's good to be back, you beautifull bastards!