sammy1

hmmm,,,i am wearing mu George hat again,,,so please excuse the bad spelling and typing (and i say that in case i become a famous somethign or other, be it weirdo or science experiment, and somebody goes back and finds this, cause god know no one else but me reads me)

So any way, a handfull of newcaslt, i gotta workj tommorrow, i just went surfed a bunch of 9'/11 pictures, and listened to alot of the songs tyhat cam e out with news broadcats and people interveiws in the background, i was almost a happy drunk tonight, just chillin in by myself (hence the george thing) and i was feeling pretty sorry for myself (like a dick) for all the things i havent done right and all the things i have done wrong, and upon realizing, again, that my life doesnt suck as much as i think it does suck, it is still my own fault for being were it is at, or more importantly, for not being were it should be at, and upon further reflection, i realize that i am completely in a position to change it all, i know i should get off my lazy ass and go do it, cause there are far worse spots to be in.

I have come to the conculsion though that i need to discover some happay music, because i dfont really have or listen to any, witch might explain one of the reasons as to why even when i am happy, i am can make myslef sad.

Stupid huh.

Well, back to drinking alone and being a dink, but a happy one...........ya, Abby Road by u know u,,,,,,,,,and i trhough Good Night Elizabeth was a happy song.........