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ever have one of those days that if you just stopped breathing, it would require to much effort and trouble to make it worth while to start again?
ever have one of those days that if you just stopped breathing, it would require to much effort and trouble to make it worth while to start again?
take tonight for instance.
i sat on the edge of a leadge, looking over, pondering my existence.
and what do i see???
who the fuck really cares, right??? its not really about what i see, its about what otheres see, so why dont i see that?? atleast until now???
I mean, one person, one soul mate, a really good friend, lover, girlfriend, wife, what ever??? but where the fuck is she?? i just need that one person that makes my hole existence and lofe seem worhhile, yet it cannot be found??
why is that????
so the next better question is, why cant i find this in myself???
what do i need an external soul to make my life seem worthwhile for???
why cant i find meaning in my own life, for me, with me, why cant i be worth anything in my own eyes, why cant i just do that?
[Edited on May 09, 2004 12:43AM]