sammy1

so how many chances does one get? how many choices can one have to fuck up? i just got a second chance, actually third chance, to fix my life.

my fucking life, not yours, not her's, not his, not my life with someone else, but me, myself, my own fucking life, and its a chance i dont deserve, from a person i dont desreve it from, god belss her sole, but what did i ever do for her?

not much in the last few years of her life, and yet i get this reward??? again actually?? am i deserving, for the most part, i say no, i am a fuck up. but i am determined not to this time.

its the same with people, why do u suck so much? why is it i am the one person people feel its easy to cut out of there life?? is it because i am shy, quite, keep to myself???? easy target for shit, or easy to walk away from?? even though i know i am not easy to walk away from, i know i dont make it easy usually, but thats a nother story....


iu just dont know these days, i know i should be happy, but i know there is something missing, somenone missing, my life inst ment to be just mine.