ahhhh to be me.
i am happy, really i am, but i still think sometimes the world is bullshit,,,,, people are bullshit, places are bullshit, things are bullshit, my job is bullshit, the people i know,,, i wont g into anther potty me post, but as much as like things, god damm being alone sucks, especially when u want to drink, but cant cuse of...
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i am happy, really i am, but i still think sometimes the world is bullshit,,,,, people are bullshit, places are bullshit, things are bullshit, my job is bullshit, the people i know,,, i wont g into anther potty me post, but as much as like things, god damm being alone sucks, especially when u want to drink, but cant cuse of...
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sooooo,, i am guessing since i dont post as much on here as i used to that that might mean my my brain is closer to normal than it was....?? i dont know, hard to explain..... but i gotta admit, i witnessed alot of bullshit and game playing tonight, and while it disgusts me, i still wonder why i am going home alone??
shoudl i...
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i'm wierd,, but i like me... ;} (even though i act like i dont)
fireyspright:
weird, and drunk seemingly always! Hahah! Not that I should talk. Where do you go out anyways?
aaarrrgghh... i still dont like this new set up.....
and my typing still blows...
and i am drunk;.....
but dam am i happpy,,, in a depressed sorta sway,,, god waht the fuck???
cant my happy be happy???
so yo vampire hotrty :]
do i go to amstrerdam and we meet,,, or fo u come here and we meet...??
(and ya,,, i am drunkl,,, but credit...
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and my typing still blows...
and i am drunk;.....
but dam am i happpy,,, in a depressed sorta sway,,, god waht the fuck???
cant my happy be happy???
so yo vampire hotrty :]
do i go to amstrerdam and we meet,,, or fo u come here and we meet...??
(and ya,,, i am drunkl,,, but credit...
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fireyspright:
this is funny. 
elvira:
i just came back from czech. bought alot of beer and greentea vodka and tequilla. all that.
we could get drunk together. first. and then i want to know you better.
my brother is in amsterdam these days.....i wish i was with him.
my passport is out of time, i have no mo to get a new one. but maybe in one or two months.
what do you think?
love baby
we could get drunk together. first. and then i want to know you better.
my brother is in amsterdam these days.....i wish i was with him.
my passport is out of time, i have no mo to get a new one. but maybe in one or two months.
what do you think?
love baby
me just be happy.
I dug a big hole in the ground today ( building a patio for mom and dad) and had some drinkw with me brother in sister law.... kind aweird to have both my neices fighting for my attenion.... ;} they be so cute though!
Yesterday was depression.,,,,,, so glad i am smarter i am now,, when big depression hits, its bad,...
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I dug a big hole in the ground today ( building a patio for mom and dad) and had some drinkw with me brother in sister law.... kind aweird to have both my neices fighting for my attenion.... ;} they be so cute though!
Yesterday was depression.,,,,,, so glad i am smarter i am now,, when big depression hits, its bad,...
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elvira:
hola amigo!!!
i need days and months off. i wanna go anywhere where nobody else is, where the sun shines all the time, where i can watch the animals doing their job. somewhere i can just be.
seems so hard. summer is so short and i gotta work. i wanna be in sibiria.
hope you are doing fine.
lots of love
i need days and months off. i wanna go anywhere where nobody else is, where the sun shines all the time, where i can watch the animals doing their job. somewhere i can just be.
seems so hard. summer is so short and i gotta work. i wanna be in sibiria.
hope you are doing fine.
lots of love
ok,,,, so maybe i do still like people,,,,, who knows, all i do know is its 90 degrees and sunny,,,, had a great time last night,,, gonna go out and enjoy the beautiful weather i think!!
(ohh,, and clean the turtles home out a bit....!)
(ohh,, and clean the turtles home out a bit....!)
elvira:
jeah turtles..so cool, i would play with em like they were my little homies, hehe
believe me im ready...as you know im still outa mo, i mean really alot and i dont know what the future will bring up for me. i wish i had a bus and pick u up and start a trip with you....
whatever i gotta check my passport as well...
love to ya man
believe me im ready...as you know im still outa mo, i mean really alot and i dont know what the future will bring up for me. i wish i had a bus and pick u up and start a trip with you....
whatever i gotta check my passport as well...
love to ya man
hmmmmmm
so who the fuck changed all this around.,......??????????????
anyhow... so i dont seem to come out here as much as i used,,,,, something to do maybe with learning that i have depression, but learning what it is, and learning what to do with it, maybe i just dont need to need to spew my crap as much as i used too????
i dont know really.......
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anyhow... so i dont seem to come out here as much as i used,,,,, something to do maybe with learning that i have depression, but learning what it is, and learning what to do with it, maybe i just dont need to need to spew my crap as much as i used too????
i dont know really.......
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elvira:
ahh sammy!!
you use to be a monk, hehe thats a geat choice for life but maybe to early. and hey dont chanell your depression to "bad" people...never lose a bad thought or vibe on anyone...they got to deal with their karma anyway!
amigo. so when do we meet? im ready now.
i love you
v
you use to be a monk, hehe thats a geat choice for life but maybe to early. and hey dont chanell your depression to "bad" people...never lose a bad thought or vibe on anyone...they got to deal with their karma anyway!
amigo. so when do we meet? im ready now.
i love you
v
pink floyd....
Every year is getting shorter
Never seem to find the time
Plans that either come to nought
Or half a page of scribbled lines
Hanging on in quiet desparation is the English way
The time is gone
The song is over
Thought I'd something more to say
Every year is getting shorter
Never seem to find the time
Plans that either come to nought
Or half a page of scribbled lines
Hanging on in quiet desparation is the English way
The time is gone
The song is over
Thought I'd something more to say
chai:
thats really well said from you.... the thing about spending time an thinking and talking about things, but NOT doing them... there are so many peolple around me who always talk and talk what they are gonna to do, a few year later they dindnt to a thing from that... its ok, everybody should do what he wants to do.... but i use it as an reflection for my own...
i always try to do the things i tell... sometimes it scares me that i do things so fast then... so i havent the chance to cope with that... i think the golden middle is like always the best in a way
hope you are also doing fine??
i always try to do the things i tell... sometimes it scares me that i do things so fast then...
so i havent the chance to cope with that... i think the golden middle is like always the best in a way
hope you are also doing fine??
mmm,, red red wine,,,,, only a little though,,,,,,, still quite sober,,,, but it still makes me think of that song tonight for some silly reason... oh well
vaca for this weekend canceled,,, but on for next weekend!!
4 days in the woods,,,,, no electricity, toilet though,,,, wood fire place,,,, log cabin,,,, next to no people...... atv...... good beer... good people...... fresh caught trout for breakfast.......
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vaca for this weekend canceled,,, but on for next weekend!!
4 days in the woods,,,,, no electricity, toilet though,,,, wood fire place,,,, log cabin,,,, next to no people...... atv...... good beer... good people...... fresh caught trout for breakfast.......
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elvira:
yes, mud for you, my whole clothes are full with it, as my flat....hehe
how do i see things??hmm with love, im infected with love these days and sometimes it makes me sad to see people cracking up on their own souls and minds....but whatever
mmmh outdoor action, have fun and think of me, thats where im at home
how do i see things??hmm with love, im infected with love these days and sometimes it makes me sad to see people cracking up on their own souls and minds....but whatever
mmmh outdoor action, have fun and think of me, thats where im at home
chai:
thank uuu
wow the trip you try to plan sounds so cool.. have u ever been once here in europe already?
wow the trip you try to plan sounds so cool.. have u ever been once here in europe already?
two weeks of rain,,,,,,,,,, gotta love it ;}
tons of roads closed, makes drivin fun!!!
and cant wait for the mud this weekend!!
now i just a cute chicky to mud wreslte with on the trail somewhere........
any takers?
tons of roads closed, makes drivin fun!!!
and cant wait for the mud this weekend!!
now i just a cute chicky to mud wreslte with on the trail somewhere........
any takers?
elvira:
YES no way mud wrestling must be fucking good. i love wrestling without mud but with it..jip im coming to get ya 
i'll write now,,, while sober... ;}
(Iactually, been very sober the last two months.... blah!)
rainy miserable day today, but good day.
one of those strong, windblown, cold rains that u cant escape from and you finally just have to succumb to and accept and enjoy.
and no more brainfucks.... its been a crappy couple of months living in my head, but i think i...
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(Iactually, been very sober the last two months.... blah!)
rainy miserable day today, but good day.
one of those strong, windblown, cold rains that u cant escape from and you finally just have to succumb to and accept and enjoy.
and no more brainfucks.... its been a crappy couple of months living in my head, but i think i...
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elvira:
hey!
the problem is, alcohol make you always feel you have something to say and all the thoughts flow out. but its the same when you are sober....so take care of you bastard
but hey im really not upset or anything...its your thing...
haha and jeah bonjovi fucking rocks
btw it just started raining heavly, so cool i love it, i love the smell and now i think of going out naked and let it come down on me. hehe no way.
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enjoy your weekend
the problem is, alcohol make you always feel you have something to say and all the thoughts flow out. but its the same when you are sober....so take care of you bastard
but hey im really not upset or anything...its your thing...
haha and jeah bonjovi fucking rocks
btw it just started raining heavly, so cool i love it, i love the smell and now i think of going out naked and let it come down on me. hehe no way.
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enjoy your weekend
will you get through??