Just wanted to say I’m so incredibly grateful for all the love my latest set The Colour Of Lust shot by @jimmymild has received in the week it’s been up! It’s my 2nd best set to date by the amount of love it’s recieved but yet to top my first set Sweetness by @crisro 👀 but to be honest I think all my sets have improved every single time and you can see how in the short year I’ve been doing modelling how much I’ve grown and learnt as a model but also in myself with the confidence I gain each time I shoot for Suicide Girls!
Despite my very difficult first year in the modelling world, (which you can read in all my previous blogposts) I do still love the community thanks to my loyal followers and the very few friends I have made within the community. However thanks to certain aspects I still can’t help but feel all my hardwork in this last year is for nothing and that I’m getting nowhere. I have 2 sets in the queue right now along with 8 more sets specifically shot for SG to submit but if none of my 6 I currently have out are good enough how can I expect any of the up and coming to be any different 🤷🏼😕
I’m feeling very lost in life in general right now and I suppose I’m questioning everything. I’ve wanted to be a Suicide Girl for 9 years but due to ill health I had to wait. So last year, finally well enough I worked my little ass off and shot SO much content but now I’m left questioning if any of it is good enough. My confidence got knocked HUGE amounts numerous times last year especially in Oct/Nov and I’m really struggling to rebuild myself from such a mentally draining year. I just want to feel like the hard work I’m putting in is worth it.
I just want to feel like I belong somewhere again...
Thank you so so much for all your support though, I couldn’t be happier with how well my latest set is doing. It means the world to me 💕
And if you follow me on Instagram, thank you for baring with me whilst I’ve been quiet and struggling mentally. I’m very grateful
Much love,
Sammiii xo
