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Monday Jun 14, 2004

Jun 14, 2004
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'you know i feel so fine,
yeah, knowin that this road i'm wanderin on
from time to time unwinds,
across the rivers, through the pines -
it always leads me home.
back home.'

this has been an unexpectedly wonderful vacation. of course, i knew i was gonna be happy to be near the beach and water, that's a fix i have to get yearly or i go insane. and i expected to enjoy my brother's company. but - in any number of ways it was even better than i expected.

i drove a boat, a trailer, and my brother's gorgeous truck. i found my way around a new city and explored on my own. i went to another city i'd only been once for the hell of it. these are all good things and make me proud that i can.

partied and drank too much with my brother's friends - wonderful wonderful people. it's such a gift to see the people you love most in this world taken care of, and to know that they've surrounded themselves with good people. that makes me happy.

and the food, oh the food. homemade brownies and homemade ice cream. boiled peanuts. sweet tea. fried green tomatoes. grits and skillet potatoes. there are some things i miss about the south.

and - i spent hours and hours and hours just talking with my brother. there's a 16yr age difference, so it's just really within the last five that we're gettin to know each other as adults. and some of the conversations were very adult blush. ahem. but also a lot of spiritual talks, too. spending a week here instead of just a few days gave us time to be normal with each other, instead of tryin to rush to fill each second. we ran errands together. cleaned house, cooked dinner, all those nice things that keep your hands busy while you talk. i am so lucky to have re-found this relationship with my brother.

and... i am also just about ready to go home. my parents were on vacation the same time i was, but got back saturday. i wanna see their pictures, hear their stories, hug 'em. i miss my damn dog, lol. my brother's dog is awesome, but it's just not the same. i've actually begun to miss my bed (but it did take longer than i expected - staying with family is so much better than staying in a hotel!). and i miss my honey more than i can say. we've been chattin on the phone and onine when i can and stuff... and i have to admit there's a joy to bein in the same time zone, lol. but... (a) i got's no privacy here to enjoy him in the same way and (b) there's no him here. at least when i'm walkin around my little place, he's been there, i can fall back on that in my head... but we're makin plans. wow, are we makin plans, so... all is well.

i fly home tonight, and back to work tomorrow.

'snap back to reality, oh, there goes gravity!'
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baudot:
....cont'd....

When Carrie walked into the club tonight, she sat down at the bar stool right next to mine. We didn't say anything... for maybe five minutes. Then we chatted a little: Meaningless things. The we went our seperate ways.

An hour later I returned to her.
"Answer a question for me. We haven't talked in three weeks. The phone number you gave me last time was a wrong number. I read that as 'leave me alone'. I don't think of someone who wants that also being someone who sits next to me. What's up?"

She had given me the wrong area code.
She gave me a new area code.
On her way out of the club, she stopped by, hugged me, and told me to call her. Said that she was lonely. I asked if I should call her tomorrow. She said no, she'd be out of town. The day after? Yes. We would have coffee.

What's really going on?
I have no clue.
Jun 14, 2004
amina:
My whole life lately has been just partying and drinking too much.

I need to find a new hobby.
Jun 14, 2004

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