I"m going to vent...
7+ months of chemotherapy has taken it's toll on me. I feel like I hit a walll and instead of taking things one day at a time, it's more like one 1/2 hour at a time. It's all about survival now, I don't have much energy for anything else. I think I have about 2.5 months left of chemo then surgery.
I'm nervous for surgery...It's looking like it might be scheduled at the same time as my ride. fuck that...I'm riding! I'm also concerned about what sort of a mindfuck this surgery will be.
I'm taking things in stride but this shit really changes you..for real. Lately I don't know who the fuck i am.
7+ months of chemotherapy has taken it's toll on me. I feel like I hit a walll and instead of taking things one day at a time, it's more like one 1/2 hour at a time. It's all about survival now, I don't have much energy for anything else. I think I have about 2.5 months left of chemo then surgery.
I'm nervous for surgery...It's looking like it might be scheduled at the same time as my ride. fuck that...I'm riding! I'm also concerned about what sort of a mindfuck this surgery will be.
I'm taking things in stride but this shit really changes you..for real. Lately I don't know who the fuck i am.
mmmsgs:
Vent away, yo. And, as I'm sure the rational side of you knows, you're NOT supposed to know who the fuck you are when this much trauma is going on. Just take solace that you were never married to Newt Gingrich... oh, wait, too soon? HE is a bstrd of the first order.
