It took me a while but I fixed my laptop. Good as new! 
Just finished my 3rd treatment. Chemo fucking blows! It's killing the tumor but it also seriously kills my sense of humor! It's creeping back though. yeah!
Today I go for my $3500 injection to help bring back my white blood cell count. One shot=$3500...so fucking crazy.I'm really lucky I have health insurance and yes, everyone should! I'm almost done with chemo though..thank fucking god! Then surgeryand then I get my life back. Probably an incredibly different sense of life but it will be back and better. I will no longer waste time...ever and I will appreciate EVERY damn minute. Nothing like cancer to kick you in the ass. If you aren't doing what you want to do, get on it..seriously. I"m not talking about making millions either I'm talking about travelling, enjoying good company, whatever makes you feel alive. For me, it will be sunshine, oceans, hiking, camping, friends (real friends), animals, photography, riding my bike and much more. also NO MORE FUCKING ASSHOLE BOYFRIENDS! I realised through this process that I am way too tolerant of bullshit, I look for the good in everyone. Although there may be good in everyone, it doesn't mean I have to invitethem into my fuckinglife. Yes I love theword FUCK...
Yes my spelling is crap these days, they call it chemo brain...whatever, that's my excuse. lol
So, anyone wants to meet me at the beach any weekend this summer, I will be there as long as its sunny. Look for the girl with the big ass smile just happy to be alive!
Just finished my 3rd treatment. Chemo fucking blows! It's killing the tumor but it also seriously kills my sense of humor! It's creeping back though. yeah!
Today I go for my $3500 injection to help bring back my white blood cell count. One shot=$3500...so fucking crazy.I'm really lucky I have health insurance and yes, everyone should! I'm almost done with chemo though..thank fucking god! Then surgeryand then I get my life back. Probably an incredibly different sense of life but it will be back and better. I will no longer waste time...ever and I will appreciate EVERY damn minute. Nothing like cancer to kick you in the ass. If you aren't doing what you want to do, get on it..seriously. I"m not talking about making millions either I'm talking about travelling, enjoying good company, whatever makes you feel alive. For me, it will be sunshine, oceans, hiking, camping, friends (real friends), animals, photography, riding my bike and much more. also NO MORE FUCKING ASSHOLE BOYFRIENDS! I realised through this process that I am way too tolerant of bullshit, I look for the good in everyone. Although there may be good in everyone, it doesn't mean I have to invitethem into my fuckinglife. Yes I love theword FUCK...
Yes my spelling is crap these days, they call it chemo brain...whatever, that's my excuse. lol
So, anyone wants to meet me at the beach any weekend this summer, I will be there as long as its sunny. Look for the girl with the big ass smile just happy to be alive!
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I've never being a good speller so I guess I've had "chemo brain" all my life.
I grew up by the Gulf and never did enjoy the beach until I left home to the military, got married, and moved away. Now it's all I want to do in the summer - just veg out.
And yes, Fuck IS a great word. My 2 favorite iterations are: Fuck that shit, homey (copyright Mike Doughty) and For Fuck's Sake (thank you UK)
And asshole boyfriends, ah yes. At least we're generally predictable. In fact, the general rule is: Men are stupid and predictable; until you come home from work one day and all their shit is moved out.
Hope you're enjoying spring and looking forward to post chemo.
JD