saffron

so I sometimes have this problem...of "leading people on." When I feel I am just being happy, and friendly, and nice....it tends to send wrong messages like whoa. Its happened on more occasions that I can count, and I've consciously tried to keep myself in check. But somehow it continues to happen. Upon a new situation of a mutual friend of mine and the boy being "in love" with me, my best friend came up with this explanation.

"It's like, you're this super happy, friendly person that says 'hey, i wanna go have fun. ya comin?' And people respond with 'yeah, hey, i do wanna go have fun!' and quickly get drunk on 'Saffron'. Then, all of a sudden, they're in love. And they think you're in love too, cuz you just keep on havin' fun."

Now I'm not trying to toot my horn or anything like that....in fact, if you knew the me inside my head you would think I have the self esteem of Quasi Moto. But I do try to have fun. And keep people smiling. And make them feel important. Because its what I appreciate from other people.

BUT GODDAMMIT, IT DOESN'T MEAN I WANNA SPEND MY LIFE WITH YOU!! OR EVEN DO YOU, FOR THAT MATTER!!!

that is all.

cheers