sadiemae

time- 8:17 am
song- bjork "like someone in love"
mood- defeated.

i feel lost.
like all the paths have been boarded up, with no chance of them ever opening again.
it seems that i find myself most depressed when i think of the past...why is it so hard for me to continue living in right now?
i just keep meandering thru the worst emotions, and longing for friends, lovers, happy faces, and smiles that i know i will never attain again.
or did i ever attain them in the first place?

i hate being a sad girl.



just a reflection
just a glimpse
just a little reminder
of all the what abouts
and all the might have
could have beens
another day
some other way
but not another reason to continue
and now you're one of us
the wretched

the hopes and prays
the better days
the far aways
forget it

it didn't turn out the way you wanted it to
it didn't turn out the way you wanted it, did it?
it didn't turn out the way you wanted it to
it didn't turn out the way you wanted it, did it?

now you know
this is what it feels like
now you know
this is what it feels like

the clouds will part and the sky cracks open
and god himself will reach his fucking arm
through
just to push you down
just to hold you down
stuck in this hole with the shit and the piss
and it's hard to believe it could come down to this
back at the beginning
sinking
spinning

and in the end
we still pretend
the time we spend
not knowning when
you're finally free
and you could be (but it didn't turn out the way you wanted it to)
(it didn't turn out quite the way that you wanted it)

now you know
this is what it feels like
now you know
this is what it feels like

?what you did was try to stop it?

now you know
this is what it feels like
now you know
this is what it feels like (you can try to stop it but it keeps on coming)
(you can try to stop it but it)

=+trent+=