today just sucked.
i felt sick again today. i've just been getting too little sleep and consuming way too much junk food. i don't remember the last time i ate something healthy.
so i didn't go to class. and it's one i still consider important. i'll have to do the reading tomorrow night. i missed work too. i feel kind of bad. i only worked for an hour on monday too b/c i felt shitty.
besides this, i felt really down today and still do. everyone asks what's wrong. but sometimes you just don't know. you have a general bad feeling. then usually you start thinking about the negative aspects of your life and analyzing if you're really happy. and then i end up way more depressed.
i'm not feeling sorry for myself really...i know i'll feel better on another day. i think that doing nothing but sleeping instead of what i should be doing put me in a worse mood. so i'll get back on tract tomorrow. sometimes i think i want something totally different though...like my life isn't what i want it to be. the problem is, i don't know what this different path would be or what i do want my life to be. i have vague ideas but no plans for implementing anything.
i'll figure it out eventually.
on a different note i've been reading up on amsterdam. i found out they have a few clubs that do live sex shows. of course i added that to my list of things to do. well, to watch, not participate. heh. though it doesn't seem like such a horrible job. maybe i'm just an exhibitionist. also, i guess i'm the last on the planet to find out why it's called the red light district. i knew it had something to do with hookers and red lights, damnit. i'm looking forward to the trip. i hope we're going to stop by london too. i really want to. with 8 or 9 other people planning anything will be kind of a pain in the ass though.
well i'm gone for now.
goodnight.
i felt sick again today. i've just been getting too little sleep and consuming way too much junk food. i don't remember the last time i ate something healthy.
so i didn't go to class. and it's one i still consider important. i'll have to do the reading tomorrow night. i missed work too. i feel kind of bad. i only worked for an hour on monday too b/c i felt shitty.
besides this, i felt really down today and still do. everyone asks what's wrong. but sometimes you just don't know. you have a general bad feeling. then usually you start thinking about the negative aspects of your life and analyzing if you're really happy. and then i end up way more depressed.
i'm not feeling sorry for myself really...i know i'll feel better on another day. i think that doing nothing but sleeping instead of what i should be doing put me in a worse mood. so i'll get back on tract tomorrow. sometimes i think i want something totally different though...like my life isn't what i want it to be. the problem is, i don't know what this different path would be or what i do want my life to be. i have vague ideas but no plans for implementing anything.
i'll figure it out eventually.
on a different note i've been reading up on amsterdam. i found out they have a few clubs that do live sex shows. of course i added that to my list of things to do. well, to watch, not participate. heh. though it doesn't seem like such a horrible job. maybe i'm just an exhibitionist. also, i guess i'm the last on the planet to find out why it's called the red light district. i knew it had something to do with hookers and red lights, damnit. i'm looking forward to the trip. i hope we're going to stop by london too. i really want to. with 8 or 9 other people planning anything will be kind of a pain in the ass though.
well i'm gone for now.
goodnight.
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Yeah, it ain't original, but it makes people laugh and it makes me laugh. I love animals so I find it adorable and so I use it. Loverly, no?
Btw, Rilke.. fantastic! My last girlfriend introduced me. I love it.