rylie

at deadstone75's suggestion, i have downloaded Ad-Aware and am currently scanning my computer. at this poiny in time i have 351 New critical objects, which is in red writing, so I think thats bad...

*weep*




*update*
after a final number of 569 hazardous files deleted, my page upload time is from about 15 second down to maybe 12-13.

...yay.

I hate lazy saturdays when I don't feel lazy but everyone else around me does. I wanna go out and have fun. we woke up, went to breakie, went to the zoo, witnessed a bison falling down at the sight of Neodrunk's nuts exposed, saw some polar bears, some other animals that were thoroughly depressed and depressing, and we're home now, and it's only...
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The final lyrical battle!

Bjork vs. Tori


BJORK


"who would have known,
a beauty this emmense,
who would have known,
a saintly trance.
who would have known,
miraculous breath,
to inhale a beard,
loaded with currants."
-Bjork


"his embrace,
a fortress,
it fuels me,
and places
a skeleton of trust,
right beneath us,
bone by bone,
stone by stone."
-bjork

"I'm a path of cinders,...
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So, guess who FINALLY got a job?




ME!

I will be working in the childrens department of my local Marshall Field's department store. SCORE!!!!

woot to me.

now, the job is offered to me pending the results of the drug test I took today, but I should be fine.
Considering I don't do drugs.

BUT I was with my grandma at the time and she...
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my soul is being devoured by my own inability to let go of my control, while trying so hard to gain some.

I need to breath deeper, but all the air around me mysteriously lacks smoke.

And I'm on a nic-fit baby.

I hate when I forget to be an intelligent girl and I do something like forget to eat. and then I go out and I drink. and then I come home to sleep and wake up with my body PISSED.

My body wants to detox, but I have no food in me to extinguish of.

So, alas, I feel a lil like death.

But my...
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you know what makes me happy?

when at 2am on a school night a boy that I care for with more than all of my heart FINALLY has the talk with me that I've been wanting to have for about 3 weeks.

Verdict: things are FINALLY right between us.

Drama is to end!

I will now resume my normally sane and happy life!

and may...
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Alright, so all comments aside, I do stupid shit when I'm drunk, and I take other peoples actions too personally. last night was just a little more extreme than most.

A good seven months being fine and one offhand comment from a friens this week sends me over the edge.

like I said, I take shit too personally.

Bad Llama.

moving on...

shit, and I'm back to cuttiing....