roxymonoxcide

can't sleep. I sometimes get this way when I go visit my folks. Its not my parents this time that is causing me anxiety. It's my cousin. She is out of jail and living at my grandma's house. I haven't physically seen her for at least a year. She is trying to stay clean and get her life back together and I am being supportive and talking to her on the phone and whatnot but actually seeing her in person will be another thing entirely. When I talk to her on the phone I picture the little girl who I used to play Barbie's with and spend entire summers together. I know that in person she will look different. She has been using some very hard drugs for the past couple of years. One of which was meth. I've seen pictures of people who abuse meth and it's not pretty. She also said and did a lot of stupid things when she was high and I am trying to trust her but it's hard when that little voice in the back of my head wonders if every word she speaks is a lie.

Today is gonna be crazy..
I have to go to school in about 3 hours. I am gonna be learning a radius cut using only a razor. So excited about that! Then i got to get home and continue to pack up everything. Mrs..Misha is coming over to hang out and knit a bit with me and Brianna is coming over to dye her hair. Then I gotta get Aidan at 5pm..and then when Bri and nath show up to the house it's off to norcal.
We are gonna be staying in my home town the friday and hanging out with my family and dropping aidan off with my parents and then we are going to drive over to SF. Saturday is prom ...sunday we drive back to woodland and get aidan and then drive back to LA. It's gonna be a great weekend even if im a little stressed out over it.