roxymonoxcide

Feelings got hurt and tears were shed and it seemed like a life or death situation and so everything got rearranged and it was supposed to magically fix everything. But nothing feels different and I'm still in the same place I was before...What did we change things for? It certainly wasn't for the better or worse...it's just hanging in purgitory waiting for some kind of resolution that by all accounts might really all just be in my head. And if that truthly is the case then it really doesn't concern other people as far as their actions or words. It's a simple matter of me working things out for myself. Until I do find happiness again. So does this mean that everthing can go back to the way it was before? does that mean that I changed things that weren't really broken? Did I just do it all for some kind of validation? I don't know. I hate this. Why can't I see what everyone else sees? I just want to be back to normal. I dont' feel like myself. And I really don't like the person that I've become.
More importantly. I'm sorry. I'm so sorry.