I had to go into work today. Which I was like..that's cool it's only three hours. That was the longest three hours of my life. As soon as I got there, I was told to fold clothes. Joy. At least I only had to listen to that awful store CD just through one cycle.
I had to give guy back his things today..well, not me...
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I had to give guy back his things today..well, not me...
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So I finally got around to updating my journal. Friday was the first day of The Culbertson Mansion Haunted House. I was a ghost, and fell down the stairs twisting my ankle. yay. I then had to work Saturday, which sucked because of the ankle. But Saturday night was fun because I got to guide at the house.
Sunday, however was the worst day ever....
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Sunday, however was the worst day ever....
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dirtlits:
Seems like everyone around me is dealing with relationship issues. I just wanted to maybe throw out some things that you probably already thought of but maybe just need to hear it from someone else.
One thing you have to remind yourself of is not to change who you are. You seem to be a great girl and he maybe a good guy but while you feel you connect with him, and feel at ease around him, there are few big problems that I can see so far. One main thing is that people do evolve and change over time. While you still care about him, you need to remind yourself that sometimes things are past the point of no return. From the sounds of it, I would say it's time to move on from that chapter in your life and start a new one. I am sure you both have changed since you met in one form or another. Which brings me to problem number two! You cannot allow yourself to change the way you are just for someone else. If someone has some issues with a few minor habits you have or a slight personality trait you have, that is one thing, but if someone is trying to change who you are completely, that is a totally different problem. A relationship works with love and understanding given both ways. Each person should be happy with the other and love that about each other, not try to change that person into who you wish they were. If you are trying to force changes, that should be a huge clue that the relationship has run it's course, or should not have even started. The old saying, "Let's just be friends" might just be a good idea this time.
I have been in your exact position before and I completely understand how you are feeling. In my mind and maybe in my heart I felt one thing, but I knew I should do something else. I should do the right thing and end the relationship and find someone I had a true connection with and not just accept the relationship I am in. It's like sticking with a job you hate just because you have been there for a while and you have some good memories of it. In your mind you know leaving is the best option but leaving is never easy ... but sometimes it is necessary in order to start doing the right thing.
As far as the set goes ... my personal opinion is to re-shoot the set. I had to do the same thing when I shot Melly's set. I shot one whole set and after reviewing it, I decided I can probably get by with this set since a good portion of the pic's are good ... or ... I can re-shoot the whole thing and get exactly what I want. I think this will apply to your set as well. The good thing is you can review the shots you already have and look for angles and photos you like and want to re-shoot. This will give you exactly what you want ... why settle for 80% when you can go for 100%??
Word! ... and that's my two cents!
One thing you have to remind yourself of is not to change who you are. You seem to be a great girl and he maybe a good guy but while you feel you connect with him, and feel at ease around him, there are few big problems that I can see so far. One main thing is that people do evolve and change over time. While you still care about him, you need to remind yourself that sometimes things are past the point of no return. From the sounds of it, I would say it's time to move on from that chapter in your life and start a new one. I am sure you both have changed since you met in one form or another. Which brings me to problem number two! You cannot allow yourself to change the way you are just for someone else. If someone has some issues with a few minor habits you have or a slight personality trait you have, that is one thing, but if someone is trying to change who you are completely, that is a totally different problem. A relationship works with love and understanding given both ways. Each person should be happy with the other and love that about each other, not try to change that person into who you wish they were. If you are trying to force changes, that should be a huge clue that the relationship has run it's course, or should not have even started. The old saying, "Let's just be friends" might just be a good idea this time.
I have been in your exact position before and I completely understand how you are feeling. In my mind and maybe in my heart I felt one thing, but I knew I should do something else. I should do the right thing and end the relationship and find someone I had a true connection with and not just accept the relationship I am in. It's like sticking with a job you hate just because you have been there for a while and you have some good memories of it. In your mind you know leaving is the best option but leaving is never easy ... but sometimes it is necessary in order to start doing the right thing.
As far as the set goes ... my personal opinion is to re-shoot the set. I had to do the same thing when I shot Melly's set. I shot one whole set and after reviewing it, I decided I can probably get by with this set since a good portion of the pic's are good ... or ... I can re-shoot the whole thing and get exactly what I want. I think this will apply to your set as well. The good thing is you can review the shots you already have and look for angles and photos you like and want to re-shoot. This will give you exactly what you want ... why settle for 80% when you can go for 100%??
Word! ... and that's my two cents!
So the cut my hours again. I'm starting to think they don't like me working there. Could it be my piercings? My Tattoos? The black hair that they haven't seen yet? Yea..I dyed it black. 
I swear if I see that comercial for Britney Spears' new perfume..I will go into defence mode..tearin' things down and shit.
I swear if I see that comercial for Britney Spears' new perfume..I will go into defence mode..tearin' things down and shit.
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dirtlits:
I have to agree with Pyrate on this one. Your hair does look very good black. It looks good against your dark brown eyes as well, so ... I say ... keep it black ... because if it ain't black ... it's wack!
Oh, and you should post up some more of your artwork. It's always nice to see others work ... I need to post up some more stuff myself!
If ya don't ... I'll send my bodyguard Pyrate up there to clean house! Word!
Oh, and you should post up some more of your artwork. It's always nice to see others work ... I need to post up some more stuff myself!
If ya don't ... I'll send my bodyguard Pyrate up there to clean house! Word!
monkeybutt:
hope you're good on monday. that's today, you see. unless i'm on ayahuasca again, but i don't think i am.
So...I did the set today. It was cold.....very very very cold! I'm not going to see the finishied product until Sunday 
The weather was a bit Cloudy but..it might work, who knows.
The weather was a bit Cloudy but..it might work, who knows.
optimistickid:
will you post the set here on Sunday? who shot it? were you nervous?
pyrate:
I think it will turn out well, I have high hopes 
I am soooooo tired! I went underpant shopping and came out empty! Well..sorta..Victoria's Secret only had g-strings and thongs, which leave nothing to the imagenation, or my spelling. Target had nothing. I didn't have an oppertunity or money for that matter to go to Fredricks of hollwood...So I ended up buying some black boyshorts at Wal-mart, and a bra I'm not happy with. I wanted...
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minibeanie:
Believe me.....Its better with just the imagination.... 
econstupidity:
nothing more exhausting than a day of frustrating underwear shopping - especially when your final refuge is wally world 
Today was the most boring day, ever. I got up at an ungodly hour to go to work, just to find out they didn't need me.
I think I need a diffrent job...this job is really not working out with my personality.
Pyrate said he found an awesome place to do the set. I'm really excited.
I dyed my hair today..but it didn't come outt...
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I think I need a diffrent job...this job is really not working out with my personality.
Pyrate said he found an awesome place to do the set. I'm really excited.
I dyed my hair today..but it didn't come outt...
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I got paid today.....so I rushed out and bought some hair dye. I don't know how it's going to turn out, it's redish-orange.
I'm thinkin that a trip to Victoria's Secret is in order..just cause I said so.
I don't know how it's going to turn out, it's redish-orange.
I'm thinkin that a trip to Victoria's Secret is in order..just cause I said so.
pyrate:
I hope the trip to Victoria's Secret went well, I am sure it did. I found the locating today, I think you will like it
Today was okay. Going to Acme was really cool. My friend got a tattoo of a rose with a key going through it, the end of the key turned into a razor blade.
I decided Pyrate is gonna do my set. I'm excited. We have it all scheduled, so wish us luck!
I decided Pyrate is gonna do my set. I'm excited. We have it all scheduled, so wish us luck!
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ruicosta:
Thank You... Good luck on ur set, can't wait to see it..
Good luck on ur set, can't wait to see it..
melly:
Uh oh, not Pyrate! Just kidding, good luck to you both! 
So, it turns out I had to work anyway...I was ringing, so it wasn't that bad. I had to drag myself in though. Today I'm going with one of my Co-workers to Acme Ink. How very exciting.
I got an email from my friend in Nashville yesterday. He told me he has a friend with a studio and blah blah blah and would like to...
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I got an email from my friend in Nashville yesterday. He told me he has a friend with a studio and blah blah blah and would like to...
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vrulovwrath:
*impersonating Pyrates voice*
No I won't be mad, do what you wont as long as we can see you set here in SG.
No I won't be mad, do what you wont as long as we can see you set here in SG.
ruicosta:
Thanks...for the comment..
I got A-b life by Mewithoutyou in the mail today. I had this CD forever ago, but it got stolen, and It seems like nobody around here sells it.
I didn't have to go to work today! It's a beautiful day, and I'm thinking, I may have to go attack the sidewalks of New Albany...Unfortunatly I'm running outta chalk.
Anyway! I'm off to shower, and...
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I didn't have to go to work today! It's a beautiful day, and I'm thinking, I may have to go attack the sidewalks of New Albany...Unfortunatly I'm running outta chalk.
Anyway! I'm off to shower, and...
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pyrate:
Enjoy your day off, you need it
ruicosta:
Have a kick ass day..
You are very welcome for my 2 cents!