I don't feel well.
I wonder how long this will go on.
I wonder how long this will go on.
This one's for Maxx...
Even though I know that he can never manage to read long posts like this.
One day, a friend of mine explained the entire problem to me. He said, that I shouldnt let if bother me that people are so completely stupid and inept. When I asked him why he replied quite matter-of-factly that it was Gods plan.
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Even though I know that he can never manage to read long posts like this.
One day, a friend of mine explained the entire problem to me. He said, that I shouldnt let if bother me that people are so completely stupid and inept. When I asked him why he replied quite matter-of-factly that it was Gods plan.
I was somewhat...
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babybeezer:
well it's good to have YOU back too! Man, I haven't seen you around at all lately. And I'm going to come back after dinner and read your long post. I promise.
babybeezer:
as promised, I'm back.
Yes, this is why I'm an atheist. I don't want a God who can't survive in the minds of intelligent people.
Yes, this is why I'm an atheist. I don't want a God who can't survive in the minds of intelligent people.
Right... so I haven't made a journal entry in about 2 months now, and to be honest I still don't really feel much like writing. However, I have stolen Lil_Tuffy's idea and will shape it to my own devices.
10 things you don't know about Rogziel:
1) From 1991 to 1998 I only dated the exgirlfriends of my exgirlfriends. This wasn't planned in any way...
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10 things you don't know about Rogziel:
1) From 1991 to 1998 I only dated the exgirlfriends of my exgirlfriends. This wasn't planned in any way...
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giga_geo:
wow. that is some random stuff.
good life!
good life!
sadie:
st ives is pretty gross
A good day. This is something I haven't had in quite a while. Even though it adds an additional hour to the existing hours journey, the decision to resume my commute from Alameda to Palo Alto by train, rather than auto, was an excellent choice today.
The nortriptyline is definitely helping me sleep these days. I also wonder if it's helping stabilize my moods as...
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The nortriptyline is definitely helping me sleep these days. I also wonder if it's helping stabilize my moods as...
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maxx:
I told you I'd get around to reading this! and HA! I did!
and wow...I wish I could comment on it in some equaly articulate way instead of just ''CLAP CLAP. Maxx like journal.'' But alas, I can't. So:
CLAP CLAP. Maxx like journal.
and wow...I wish I could comment on it in some equaly articulate way instead of just ''CLAP CLAP. Maxx like journal.'' But alas, I can't. So:
CLAP CLAP. Maxx like journal.
maxx:
something I can actually say though is that it reminded me freakishly about some of my feelings on my train trip around the country. Just that general feeling that you don't often get when a song someone sings really excites you and makes you smile the whole day. And the way the entire day just seemed to happen so effortlessly. That's really awsome. I somehow totally get this.
I also get rashes...but I digress...
I also get rashes...but I digress...
"Disaster is a natural part of my evolution toward tragedy and dissolution.
I'm breaking my attachment to physical power and possessions becasue only through destroying myself can I discover the greater power of my spirit"
...you have to realize that some day you will die. Until you know that, you are useless...
I'm breaking my attachment to physical power and possessions becasue only through destroying myself can I discover the greater power of my spirit"
...you have to realize that some day you will die. Until you know that, you are useless...
clovesbud:
That's all very well and good, but...let's start asking the bigger questions...
Can Your Pussy Do The Dog????
Can Your Pussy Do The Dog????
lila:
I must agree.
Being afraid never got anyone anywhere worth going.
Being afraid never got anyone anywhere worth going.
Now my enemy is time.
ticking away into the new year I know that I am pitched head-long into the abyss of circumstance.
There is little that I can do but watch...
...and wait.
ticking away into the new year I know that I am pitched head-long into the abyss of circumstance.
There is little that I can do but watch...
...and wait.
lila:
any resolutions? i just want to stay alive through another year.
rogziel:
That sounds about right. During the course of the year I'm sure I'll resove to do a thousand different things. Some I'll follow through on; some I won't.
So long as I'm still able to see, hear, walk talk and fuck I think everything will be alright.
So long as I'm still able to see, hear, walk talk and fuck I think everything will be alright.
Tomorrow is the dreaded day...
I don't dislike Christmas, however, I have to admit I prefer my childhood memories of Christmas to the reality I am faced with. Of course, tomorrow is also my 29th birthday and this will be the last year that I celebrate my birthday on the actual anniversary of the event.
Time to pick another day...
Time to be medicated and...
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I don't dislike Christmas, however, I have to admit I prefer my childhood memories of Christmas to the reality I am faced with. Of course, tomorrow is also my 29th birthday and this will be the last year that I celebrate my birthday on the actual anniversary of the event.
Time to pick another day...
Time to be medicated and...
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emily:
HaPpY B-dAy/x-mAS
maxx:
Holy shit! I missed your birthday. What an ass I am.
Oh well....let me be the first to wish you a happy 30th birthday.
Oh well....let me be the first to wish you a happy 30th birthday.
Blizzard white, removing all ability to orient myself I feel weightless, moving through liquid space.
A red sphere, tiny and bright moves across my field of vision, I fix on the spot and move closer. From white to red I lose my sense of depth and slide around the edges of consciousness.
Inside the sphere I see the blue ring glowing; pulling me closer, changing...
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A red sphere, tiny and bright moves across my field of vision, I fix on the spot and move closer. From white to red I lose my sense of depth and slide around the edges of consciousness.
Inside the sphere I see the blue ring glowing; pulling me closer, changing...
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maxx:
dear god.
I forgot you stuck your tongue in my eye.
[Edited on Dec 22, 2002]
I forgot you stuck your tongue in my eye.
[Edited on Dec 22, 2002]
babybeezer:
I would like to add to the rogziel appreciation. Thanks so much for dealing with the pictures, you're such a sweetie. 
My new thing...
Temazepam
Temazepam is a benzodiazepine hypnotic agent
"benzodiazepine"
Any of a group of chemically similar psychotropic drugs with potent hypnotic and sedative action; used predominantly as antianxiety and sleep-inducing drugs.Side effects of these drugs may include impairment of psychomotor performance; amnesia; euphoria; dependence; and rebound (i.e., the return of symptoms) transiently worse than before treatment, upon discontinuation of the drug.
"hypnotic"
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Temazepam
Temazepam is a benzodiazepine hypnotic agent
"benzodiazepine"
Any of a group of chemically similar psychotropic drugs with potent hypnotic and sedative action; used predominantly as antianxiety and sleep-inducing drugs.Side effects of these drugs may include impairment of psychomotor performance; amnesia; euphoria; dependence; and rebound (i.e., the return of symptoms) transiently worse than before treatment, upon discontinuation of the drug.
"hypnotic"
1....
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There is a moment between one day and the next where time seems to collide and exhaustion takes over. A waking dream that I seem incapable of mastering. A lucid moment reflected against my monitor screen.
The ocean swells in the tumult of the storm, its fury relentless. In the calm, the stillness of the water reflects the cold grey of the pistol pressed deep...
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The ocean swells in the tumult of the storm, its fury relentless. In the calm, the stillness of the water reflects the cold grey of the pistol pressed deep...
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takeshi21:
Zod!
johncocktoastin:
you are the only person who got that!
that song rules!!!!
that song rules!!!!