Friday Dec 27, 2002

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Now my enemy is time.

ticking away into the new year I know that I am pitched head-long into the abyss of circumstance.

There is little that I can do but watch...

...and wait.
lila:
any resolutions? i just want to stay alive through another year.
rogziel:
That sounds about right. During the course of the year I'm sure I'll resove to do a thousand different things. Some I'll follow through on; some I won't.

So long as I'm still able to see, hear, walk talk and fuck I think everything will be alright.

Tuesday Dec 24, 2002

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Tomorrow is the dreaded day...

I don't dislike Christmas, however, I have to admit I prefer my childhood memories of Christmas to the reality I am faced with. Of course, tomorrow is also my 29th birthday and this will be the last year that I celebrate my birthday on the actual anniversary of the event.

Time to pick another day...

Time to be medicated and...
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emily:
HaPpY B-dAy/x-mASsmile
maxx:
Holy shit! I missed your birthday. What an ass I am.

Oh well....let me be the first to wish you a happy 30th birthday.

Friday Dec 20, 2002

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Blizzard white, removing all ability to orient myself I feel weightless, moving through liquid space.

A red sphere, tiny and bright moves across my field of vision, I fix on the spot and move closer. From white to red I lose my sense of depth and slide around the edges of consciousness.

Inside the sphere I see the blue ring glowing; pulling me closer, changing...
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maxx:
dear god.

I forgot you stuck your tongue in my eye.
blackeyed

[Edited on Dec 22, 2002]
babybeezer:
I would like to add to the rogziel appreciation. Thanks so much for dealing with the pictures, you're such a sweetie. kiss

Thursday Dec 05, 2002

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My new thing...

Temazepam

Temazepam is a benzodiazepine hypnotic agent

"benzodiazepine"
Any of a group of chemically similar psychotropic drugs with potent hypnotic and sedative action; used predominantly as antianxiety and sleep-inducing drugs.Side effects of these drugs may include impairment of psychomotor performance; amnesia; euphoria; dependence; and rebound (i.e., the return of symptoms) transiently worse than before treatment, upon discontinuation of the drug.

"hypnotic"
1....
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Friday Oct 11, 2002

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There is a moment between one day and the next where time seems to collide and exhaustion takes over. A waking dream that I seem incapable of mastering. A lucid moment reflected against my monitor screen.

The ocean swells in the tumult of the storm, its fury relentless. In the calm, the stillness of the water reflects the cold grey of the pistol pressed deep...
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takeshi21:
Zod!
johncocktoastin:
you are the only person who got that!
that song rules!!!!

Monday Oct 07, 2002

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I am Jack's utter contempt for humanity.

Wait... this is supposed to be a personal ad isn't it?

Let's try again...

I'm a single white male, and much to my dismay I fall into the bay area commuter category, out the door at 7am in the office by 9am and back home by 8pm. Unfortunately, this presents the impression that I'm a workaholic, which just...
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Wednesday Oct 02, 2002

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Fatigue is a stange thing...

there is a moment when I can feel the air like a liquid and it seems as though everything is in slow-motion. Out of synch with everything around me I lose the ability to focus or concentrate on anything.

Some people may money to feel like that... I just wish it would stop. Some days I'm not even sure if...
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Monday Sep 02, 2002

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some people are just insane.

welcome to my world.

party on!!!
suoda:
Angelo Badalamenti.... my hero

Soul Coughing... incredible

Cibo Matto... terrific


I am seeing Medeski Martin & Wood on Halloween and Smokey & Miho will be opening. Miho is such a great musician. All of her stuff rocks, from Smokey & Miho to Gorillaz to Cibo Matto. She is very cultured with music which is very refreshing to see nowadays.

I wish I knew Soul Coughing when they were playing shows in NYC. I am dissapointed I missed their live show. It must have been packed with energy. Ahh.... just to see a live improv version of "Casiotone Nation" would have been well worth the price.

Ah.... Angelo Badalamenti. First off, anyone who is David Lynch's right hand man has an honorable position in life. His work on the Twin Peaks soundtrack captivates me daily. His work on Mulholland Drive was splendid. I work at a music store and we get copies of BOSS's monthly magazine. There was a terrific article in one about the musical relationship Lynch and Badalamenti have. It is intense and they mess around with pedals all the time trying to find the best sounds for their work. A terrific team.

Saturday Aug 24, 2002

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Today wasn't the best of days. While it started out ok the later part of the afternoon saw me nearly laying down my motorcycle. Fortunately the right side of my body and the chain-link fence managed to sopport the weigt of the bike and kept it from actually hitting the ground.

I'm just wondering whether or not the scrapes and bruises on my arms and...
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Monday Aug 12, 2002

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The Yamaha Virago XV750 is mine all mine.... Mine I tell you...

Sunday Aug 04, 2002

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Feeling exhausted. Too much to do.

There is, however, a moment of relaxation on the way. A day trip to the Farallon Islands and Deep Sea Fishing in Monterey. It'll be a nice break.

After that I have a Virago 750 to look at... oh how I need a motorcycle,

Sunday Jun 30, 2002

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Pride Parade, a barbeque and booze. The trauma of the week has finally passed.
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