roguemind

So i'm in Kentucky now. Visiting family. I found something interesting. Ironic is probably a better word. Let me backtrack a little.

Some time ago I made some naughty pictures for the suicide boys group. They where not the greatest, but I sort of liked how some of them turned out. In one of the sets there is a picture of me sitting in a chair facing the camera with my back to a mirror. I converted it to sepia before i posted it. I thought it was one of the better pictures of me. The closest to maybe showing my true self at the time? I dunno. I liked it for what ever reason. So i put it online both here and on MySpace. Then some time passes and we are back in the present. I'm sitting in the upstairs bedroom now staring at that same picture.

It is not a big deal I suppose. It's just kind of weird to see a photo from at shoot that I did for the suicideboys group where I got very naked hanging on the wall. It is not one of the naked ones thank goodness and as far as I know they have no idea that there is more to that picture. But still. It stopped me for a second and I figures I would write about it.

In other news. My ex-wife knows that I am back in Kentucky. She is an anomaly of a human and has had more of an effect on my life then she or anyone else will ever understand completely. It is both a horrible and wonderful portion of the story I call life and it does not seem to want to stop ever. I don't know what to think about that ether. But I digress. The point of this is a question. She knows I'm back in Kentucky. She has called twice. The first time I did not answer both because I was busy and because I had know idea what she wanted to say nor did I have the time to prepare my brain. (The meaning behind that last sentence is not as bad as it sounds). The second I did not answer because I was asleep and my phone was on vibrate for some reason. But i called her about ten minutes ago. She was at work apparently. She said that when she called this morning she was hoping to wake me up. That sounded odd to me. Shes not playful any more. Not like she was. We talk every couple of months and have good conversations, but she has not been playful sense we where married. So I could see her calling me with the intention of being playful as anything close to the truth. Also I seriously doubt that it was a mean gesture. Thats not her kind of mean. So what was it? I have no idea. She was at work so we could not talk. She told me she would call later when she got home. The curiosity in my head is driving me mad. This is the first timed i have talked to her when we where in the same town in about four or five years. On top of that my brother see her every couple of days on the way to work. He said she sounded elated when he told her I was here. I not sure if I heard him right or not but it sound she told him she wanted me to visit her sometime while I was home. I could have been mistaken. This should prove to be interesting to say the least.

-roguemind

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