(It’s a tad length)
As most of you guys know, my first set “RYOKO” dropped last week. I was and still am so excited with the love, likes and comments everyone shared. Even more so when I saw that the Official Suicide Girls Instagram gave me shout out (I’m still fan girl-zing. Sue me). My IG was flooded with a lot of messages by SG members, IG members and models outside of suicide girls. There was one particular message from a girl that stood out to me, it read “I love your stretch marks they make you stand out”....after reading that I just felt myself get angry. I had just finished blocking someone harassing me because they felt dark skinned women didn’t have a place on the site (which is a whole blog in itself) and I was still raging. I got super defensive and wrote an ESSAY of why she was rude and how I totally wasn’t being crazy defensive. She later wrote back apologizing and saying she almost never sees stretch marks on SG’s or Hopefuls and it made her want to give it a try..... To say I felt horrible was an understatement. I’ve always shouted “body positivity, love yourself how you are” and things of that nature to other people but only took the advice at half value.
It really put into perspective how I want to view myself, how I actually view myself, and how I SHOULD be viewing myself. I feel like a lot of people are their own worst critic to help get better at the craft they’ve chosen, but learning to tell the difference between constructive criticism and self destruction is everything.
I wish that girl knew how much she made me think, and the impact she left....
