rockabillyangel

Ok, been a week since my surgery. I feel alot better than a week ago, haha. Still painful, especially since Im taking less pain meds. Even breathing hurts, lol. Im doing really good though, I transfered into soft blended foods from clear liquids 2 days ago, and it has all stayed down perfectly and digested great. Ive decided not to weigh myself till my post op appointment, which is in one week, so I wont have a grand total of how much weight loss so far till then. Basicly, everything is going really good with my surgery. Im just going a little crazy cause I cant really do anything. I cant drive anywhere, I cant do much of exercise cause my incisions still hurt and your not allowed to bend over or pick things up. Im like rawrrrr.

Ive been watching alot of Grey's Anatomy, and holy shit...do not watch it when youve been off of your depression/anxiety meds for a few days. I became an emotional crying mess after this one episode when Miranda was left....abandonded in a sense. It made me cry, reminding of my recent break up.... (yeah, guess what....still NO word. Not ONE FUCKING WORD. Guess to him I wasnt even worth breaking up with. I love selfish assholes, I really do) But yeah, so I was a crying mess and couldnt stop....which made my incisions hurt ALOT. I know hes not worth one tear drop, and Ive moved on alot but it still hurts and Im allowed to greive. You know what makes me laugh......I was once broken up with by my ex Richard through a TEXT MESSAGE. I thought that was the lowest of the low, the cowardly of the cowards. Now, Richard has been made to seem like mother Teresa by my recent ex. Atleast Richard broke up with me.....atleast he told me he didnt want to be with me. And what I find even funnier is Richard was there for me through this recent crap.....wtf right? The universe is funny. I dont mind the change though. I love this feeling of excitedness for the future.

Well, not this weekend, but next weekend is Orange County. Im mucho excited to see my Jolie. I get my new hair cut and style too. And see friends and have fun.

The weekend after that, Im suppost hang out with my friend Jeff. Hes started hitting on me, but Im taking everything slow with anyone and just being friends right now. He and I both love to cuddle though, so we will friend-cuddle, haha.

As soon as my doc gives me the OK, I can start riding my horses again, and exercising and get into shape like I was a few years ago.

Then March 4th is the AFI concert with Venescha and other people, which I'll spend in Lancaster at Venescha's all weekend for.

Then I have some things Im planning for like going to Seattle to visit my friends there, flying to Missouri to visit family.

Im gonna go to the Coachella music festival down here in Indio at the end of April. So Im excited for alot right now. Heres the HUGE list of band playing over the 3 day Coachella event:


Well people, Im gonna go relax and rest. I appologize for lacking on being in PSW, and checking and commenting on people's blogs....Ive needed some time away, but Im coming back to you guys as you can see. I love you all. <3 I also love pirates!!