Good news- I am surfin the crimson wave aka I am not with child.
Being ever paranoid, I will go and take a professional test once this thing is over, just to make sure. I have heard horror stories of girls getting their rags while they are pregnant, and of crappy over the counter preg test.
Thanks everyone for being so supportive!! I got crazy love for all of you!
I felt really ill this morning, my mother offered me a codine, but I declined. I had to be on the road, and drugs seems less and less of a "good time" these days. Everytime I do stuff I hear my inner voice saying "your avoiding reality again!!" ofcourse then all I do is tell myself to fuck off, and then Ii am all fucked up and having this internal debate which totally ruins my buzz-needless to say, I just avoid the drugs.
The crappiest thing happened to me. I either lost 40-60 dollars, or someone stole my 40-60$. Last I remember I had the cash while I was inside to what people around me refer to as the ghetto mall. I finished most of my gift shopping, with the exception of needing to find one more present for my mother. I had only a few hours before the gym closed so I went to work out on account that Ii took yesterday off. I did my thing, then went home, and what should happen to me??!!! My cash was not to be found!! I have no idea how this could happen!! I have 10 bucks to my name and it isn't even mine. Its money from the office to help buy maps to find more real estate. CRAP CRAP CRAP!!!!
I recieved a request for a friend today on the brighter side of things. From a dj no less, so now I am really please because I want to start going to underground parties and stuff. I just need some night life again. On the other hand, I totally do not except invites to go out these days on account of me being so fuckin hard up for cash. I try to tell myself this is not forever, and so when the cash comes back, my ass will be back on the dance floor.
I hope everyone has a killa holiday. I am very eager for it to pass, but I push for everyone to drink mad egg nog and munch mad cookies ( haha get it? munch cookies) and just kick it with their crew. I just want to shower, and stay in my apartment with my trip hop music and marlboro milds. I need to rack up some change and by a soda. I am thirsty.
Happy holidays everyone and mad love!!
