I'm a father who has never held his daughter.

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I'm wasting away, and know that if Taylor doesn't feel comfortable leaving my daughter in my care, then there is nothing I can do other then take her to court, and drag my beautiful innocent daughter through a ugly court battle, and that isn't something she deserves to be put through. So now I'm stuck in a hamster wheel scenario where on one hand I...
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Thursday

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Well getting into mental health is harder then it sounds. There's a waiting period where I'm from, and I'm on a stupid list. Its just getting worse for me until I get help. But I'm still alive, I lost a friend the other day to overdose of fentinyl which is what all the junkies are moving to from heroin which I refuse to start doing....
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bronsonquick:
It's the same in Australia. When I needed help and finally reached out I had to wait two months before I could see someone! It was worth the wait for me even though at the time I was in a very dark place. Try and stay strong brother and talk to yourself in a compassionate voice. You've reached out which is an excellent start. When you mentioned that you don't want another habit just remember there are NA and AA meetings that are free to attend. People in those groups are really amazing and compassionate I hear 😉

I need help, i'm scared, and don't know what to do.

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so many bridges burnt, so many lies told, i'm feel alone, because i am, i can't stop putting this stuff into my body, when i say i'm done, i'm too weak to follow through with it, everyone is tired of me, and i don't blame them. I'm just a burden in everyone's life, i'm afraid of making new friends because i will just end up...
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robinsteal1980:
Thank you that's probably what I'm going to do. I'm going to do it. I have to do it!! NA has helped alot of people, but where I'm from it's just a place where people can sell their drugs, and meet a quick bag whore. Not a very good place. But I feel that if I turn myself in to mental health they should help me at least find a footing to where I need to be. I feel so humiliated by this, and think people look at me in disgust if I even mention I use drugs. It's hard for me to reach out in person for help, the world is so judgmental, but maybe it's all in my head, which is another good reason to contact mental health services. Thank you for caring it means alot
mrbungle:
Robin, keep posting letting us know how you are getting along. I will offer support as far as I am able. Remember when you are on the programme you will need to build up your arsenal because it is going to get very tough. I can honestly say though that some of the best people I have met have been ex-junkies. But it will be so easy to slide back into old habits which is why you need support and a faith in yourself being a better person. Take care and give yourself this chance.

I left my phone in someones car!!

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I'm so mad at myself! it seems whenever everything is going smoothly something happens that just throws my whole day in the trash. Gwaaah!!! now i feel like i'm going to eat my fingernails off everyone of my fingers, i can't sleep, and i'm in a pretty shitty mood, all because i left my electronic communication device in someones car? something isn't right with this....
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bluenicorn:
Fuck ! I feel you . Did you get it back ?
robinsteal1980:
yes but it took a few days

I can't see the the light at the end anymore.

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I feel like my life has shattered to the point that even the drugs im addicted to can't numb the loneliness and sorrow that my life is drowning in. I'm not looking for sympathy, or anything from anyone. i just need to get this all down so that i can read it later...

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