rift

Went to the airport today to go home. Waited around for hours. Was eventually bumped off of my flight. Sent to a hotel in some ghetto near Denver. Flying home tomorrow now. Had one thing to eat today. Complementary WiFi in the hotel room.

Three nights ago I was almost mauled by a bear

Dial-up rules. Feels like I'm back in middle school, chatting on telnet talkers all day. Waiting for ten minutes for dailykos or salon.com to load. I think porn is out of the question.

Getting a lot of reading done. Not as much writing as I would like, but there is still time left.

I forgot to pay rent before I departed - I left the...
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please not another stare
i've been in that trance before
those burning eyes half glazed with tints of fury and resentment
fighting not to look back
and still tasting the dust from the last time we did
we sift through the crowds without a care
only to leave the burnt pattern of a waking nightmare
loneliness finds us beneath dim lit lights
where pen and...
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I got home from work tonight and both my cable tv and internet were out. Didn't come back on until after midnight, after I woke up from an impromptu nap. I think it messed up my dvr taping gossip girl.

Another night spent in chat when I should be getting work done. Watching The Proposition again. I should get the soundtrack. Need to add John Hillcoat to my list. Six more days of work, then vacation. Still not sure where I should go. Philly or Boulder might be good to escape this heat wave. Not sure if I want to put up with my parents...
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Hot Pockets rule. And Snickers ice cream bars. I don't know why I'm eating them after midnight but whatever.

I went to two movies today, one in the afternoon to escape the heat and the other this evening. I thought about hitting a bar after the second film but I ended up just going to Zankoo Chicken for some shwarma and heading home. I don't know how many meaningful relationships you can really start with girls you meet at a bar. I thought about...
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I left work early today in order to catch the Lakers game. Still almost missed it due to traffic. It felt like a Friday all day today even though I have to go in to work tomorrow. Boss will be back, hopefully with good news.

I feel like I've been lame lately. I haven't been getting the things done I need to, I haven't been...
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I need you to be the strength of widows and sole survivors
I need you to be as fearless as new mothers and new fathers
I need you to be the hope of hearts who lost true love
I need you to be the might of their first kiss
I need a purpose and I need a reason
I need to know that there is...
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I'm really going to stop spending friday nights at bars. It always seems like more fun than it actually is. I have better things I can be doing with my time anyway. I'm tired of the feelings alcohol brings forth. This weekend was unexceptional. I went hiking at least, which although it reminded me of her and us it was good to get out there...
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Long day at work. Carcass in the street on the way home. Dead dog with tire tracks through it. This city...

Rock show was good, a small moment of catharsis. Screamed myself hoarse. Thinking of driving to Long Beach tomorrow night to do it again. No plans yet for the weekend. LA SG's feel free to coax me out of the apartment.



I would have...
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