so clearly my first order of business is to bask in the glory of the steelers victory yesterday!!! my brother is a diehard ravens fan so next sunday all hell is going to break loose and one of us might not make it to the end of the game alive. WE ARE GOING TO KICK THEIR ASS. i have confidence. we are going all the way this season. i can feel it. 
i just finished visions of cody this weekend and then read the rum diary finally. i am addicted to books. next up is definitly a burroughs...either junky or the soft machine. you decide.
soberness is still going strong! i decided to buy myself presents today. i figured day twelve of a sobriety was worthy of such
and i was bored. so i got some sweet purple boots, some sweet undies because i'm an addict, i can barely fit anymore in my drawers haha, and a gargantuan qdoba burrito which i demolished as i do all foods.
insomnia is worse than EVER. i never find myself asleep before sunrise. therefore i also sleep in every day until around noon, which i hate. i love waking up early. making eggs and toast and drinking coffee and smoking until my day has to begin. must break this habit soon. i'm hoping in another week or so my body will start adjusting to its lack of alcohol and sleep might start deciding to be my friend.
speaking of friends. my friend steve was talking about sleep and it got me to thinking on the subject ...
i don't want to sleep because i want to see the sun rise. with the same feelings that come in the night. i realize all of a sudden that i never sleep intentionally. it is merely an interruption to the best and most true inner workings of my brain. it is like when you are reading a book and suddenly it dawns on you that you've just gone through five pages and yet didn't take in a single thing. the words went in your eyes and out your ass. what the hell happened for those five pages? useless thoughts (forgotten), worries of the subconscious (which i have decided is the plague of society along with television and vitamin water)...(these thoughts and worries being the equivalent of dreams, typically crazed for me, or simply deep sleep...but what is that?). and now you must go back and read those five pages again...when you wake up.
yeah...
that's pretty much how i feel about sleeping.
i have been eating so many dunkaroos i think my teeth are going to rot out of my skull. but they are so great. and i have to eat like an entire box to feel satisfied. so what the hell. i'm glad metabolism is on my side.
oh yeah! this is happening on february the 6th, and you should be there. if you live in virginia you have no excuse boys and girls.
it just dawned on me that I CAN MOVE SO SOON!!!! LESS THAN A MONTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm going to get a crappy ass job that i won't feel bad quitting without notice (not like i ever do). try and rack up as much income as i can before i take off. i actually like working at aldo but i'm only getting like 10 hours a week. sorry, i'm not sixteen and that is not sufficient haha i have an interview at arbys on wednesday. wow. i have no shame anymore. and i love their fries. if i get the job i'm stealing like ten vats of arbys sauce and smuggling it to pittsburgh with me. they drug test though and i havn't exactly been steering clear of the reefer. so...maybe i won't do that after all...
hopefully when mrs. case manager lady sees that i failed another breathalyzer she won't ruin my happy streak of awesome. ehhhhh.
my taxes are going to suck this year. 2008 was quite jobalicious for me. i think i may even have beat my record for 2006 and it was hell getting ahold of all those forms. dang. and the fact that i had multiple jobs in two different states makes it even more crazy. haha oh well.
bkak!
i just finished visions of cody this weekend and then read the rum diary finally. i am addicted to books. next up is definitly a burroughs...either junky or the soft machine. you decide.
soberness is still going strong! i decided to buy myself presents today. i figured day twelve of a sobriety was worthy of such
and i was bored. so i got some sweet purple boots, some sweet undies because i'm an addict, i can barely fit anymore in my drawers haha, and a gargantuan qdoba burrito which i demolished as i do all foods. insomnia is worse than EVER. i never find myself asleep before sunrise. therefore i also sleep in every day until around noon, which i hate. i love waking up early. making eggs and toast and drinking coffee and smoking until my day has to begin. must break this habit soon. i'm hoping in another week or so my body will start adjusting to its lack of alcohol and sleep might start deciding to be my friend.
speaking of friends. my friend steve was talking about sleep and it got me to thinking on the subject ...
i don't want to sleep because i want to see the sun rise. with the same feelings that come in the night. i realize all of a sudden that i never sleep intentionally. it is merely an interruption to the best and most true inner workings of my brain. it is like when you are reading a book and suddenly it dawns on you that you've just gone through five pages and yet didn't take in a single thing. the words went in your eyes and out your ass. what the hell happened for those five pages? useless thoughts (forgotten), worries of the subconscious (which i have decided is the plague of society along with television and vitamin water)...(these thoughts and worries being the equivalent of dreams, typically crazed for me, or simply deep sleep...but what is that?). and now you must go back and read those five pages again...when you wake up.
yeah...
that's pretty much how i feel about sleeping.
i have been eating so many dunkaroos i think my teeth are going to rot out of my skull. but they are so great. and i have to eat like an entire box to feel satisfied. so what the hell. i'm glad metabolism is on my side.
oh yeah! this is happening on february the 6th, and you should be there. if you live in virginia you have no excuse boys and girls.
it just dawned on me that I CAN MOVE SO SOON!!!! LESS THAN A MONTH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i'm going to get a crappy ass job that i won't feel bad quitting without notice (not like i ever do). try and rack up as much income as i can before i take off. i actually like working at aldo but i'm only getting like 10 hours a week. sorry, i'm not sixteen and that is not sufficient haha i have an interview at arbys on wednesday. wow. i have no shame anymore. and i love their fries. if i get the job i'm stealing like ten vats of arbys sauce and smuggling it to pittsburgh with me. they drug test though and i havn't exactly been steering clear of the reefer. so...maybe i won't do that after all...
hopefully when mrs. case manager lady sees that i failed another breathalyzer she won't ruin my happy streak of awesome. ehhhhh.
my taxes are going to suck this year. 2008 was quite jobalicious for me. i think i may even have beat my record for 2006 and it was hell getting ahold of all those forms. dang. and the fact that i had multiple jobs in two different states makes it even more crazy. haha oh well.
bkak!
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micamars:
Yea, but your cuter, lol!
scarletletterman:
Way to go on 12 days of sobriety! Sorry to still hear about your nagging insomnia. It sounds like ti totally sucks. I've had bouts of insomnia here and there. It's awful. Keep hanging in there!