My boobs are swollen (which is kind of nice) and tender. My lower abdomen feels like someone has been kicking me repeatedly for days. I am not doubled over and in bed yet, so that is a good sign. But it is only a matter of time. I hate having a disease that doctors look at you and go "here's the narcotics prescription, not much else we can do for you". i hate when they say "it may be time to go back in and see if it spread, or see if it is worse this time around". I hate that I am contempating having it all removed just so I won't be in this kind of pain anymore. I hate that I dread my period and that it makes me cry. I hate that as I sit here the pain is building and the pressure in my abdomen is getting worse. I hate that I have to go through so much hell... for what? Seriously... FOR WHAT?
Anyways, enough about my broken lady parts. Stupid lady parts. I am so NOT exciting. I have 3 quizzes this week, 2 clinic shifts, 2 papers to write, an extra credit project to do and a shit ton of studying to do. Then finals. 2 more weeks and the summer is mine!
Grampa is recovering nicely. Last night 300 was on tv and I broke down like a fool. I watched that movie while waiting for Uncle Wayne the first time I took him to dialysis. The associations are crazy and the tears like to come a lot. September is going to suck so hard. Especially the 15-21. I think I may stay in bed and cry that whole week. Okay I know that's not what he would want and I won't really do it, but there will be a lot of crying that week. There is a lot of crying now, though I don't let it get crazy. I really should just let it out. Silly me.
Moving to Cali is still high on the January priority list. Though it might be smarter to wait until next April. Seeing as I will be finished with comps on December 18 - then it is holidays that I will hate with all my being and school then starts again. That's not quite enough time to get to Cali and get settled. And I did just take over Student Council - may be shitty to leave them like that HAHAHAHAHA.
Super boring!!!
check out those snake bites... looking fantastic. I think they make my lip look bigger lol, so i dig them even more. who wants to make out when i'm allowed to again?! and check out that grey streak... haha
Anyways, enough about my broken lady parts. Stupid lady parts. I am so NOT exciting. I have 3 quizzes this week, 2 clinic shifts, 2 papers to write, an extra credit project to do and a shit ton of studying to do. Then finals. 2 more weeks and the summer is mine!
Grampa is recovering nicely. Last night 300 was on tv and I broke down like a fool. I watched that movie while waiting for Uncle Wayne the first time I took him to dialysis. The associations are crazy and the tears like to come a lot. September is going to suck so hard. Especially the 15-21. I think I may stay in bed and cry that whole week. Okay I know that's not what he would want and I won't really do it, but there will be a lot of crying that week. There is a lot of crying now, though I don't let it get crazy. I really should just let it out. Silly me.
Moving to Cali is still high on the January priority list. Though it might be smarter to wait until next April. Seeing as I will be finished with comps on December 18 - then it is holidays that I will hate with all my being and school then starts again. That's not quite enough time to get to Cali and get settled. And I did just take over Student Council - may be shitty to leave them like that HAHAHAHAHA.
Super boring!!!
check out those snake bites... looking fantastic. I think they make my lip look bigger lol, so i dig them even more. who wants to make out when i'm allowed to again?! and check out that grey streak... haha
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