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Let me clarify that yesterday I was high on painkillers... not illegal substances. I took too many yesterday and had a bit of a reaction... but it wasn't bad. I just couldn't move hahaha. I was in a very happy place. However the pain in my ovaries still overrides the painkillers. It's depressing. I have hope, yesterday I had an acupuncture treatment with a supervisor who specializes in my issues. So thank something. The only downside is that my intern's assistant is my friend, who also happens to be the prettiest boy in school. He's gorgeous (Ahn, if I wanted a reliever, he would be the one), smart, funny, determined, etc, blah blah blah. So he spent 20 minutes doing medical qi gong on my abdomen while I had needles in me. Touching all over the place. And he was worried about being on my case cus he thought I would be weirded out. Which I am not, I mean you want a case to learn from, well I got one. We also have 3 classes together, so we spend a lot of time together this semester. He sat next to me last night in points class and rubbed my back... I'm not sure I can handle the coddling. He knows what I'm going through but the constant back rubbing and affection must stop. Oh, he has a gf. This tall, skinny blonde girl in all our classes. And she's 30, totally cougaring on him.

Anyways, I have hope with my new supervisor and intern. New herbs to take. Must be proactive and do something. I'm sure I will have to have surgery again in the next year but I really don't want to. The pain is just steadily getting worse every month. I really want to go home right now and sleep. I'm still fucked up from all the pills I took last night.

School update later. It's going to be a rough semester. A really rough semester.