Hello May. Please bring better and brighter things. 2010 has been one hell of a year. It has tested all the strength I have in my body. I may be the strongest person you know, but you wouldn't really know cus I wouldn't let you get that far. I know there are people out there that have it worse than me, I understand that. However, my life has been no picnic. I would enumerate but right now that's just not interesting for anyone.
I'm not in a good place. I am miserable. I try really hard not to show it. I do a pretty good job I think.
I always thought my mouth would get me punched in the face... not involve me in an asinine, circuitous conversation. Yeah I said it... asinine. You hear me? A completely unneeded conversation. I'm pretty sure there is no love left in my body or heart to give to someone or anyone.
I need to start writing again I really do.
My schedule starting Monday: Monday = work, Tuesday and Wednesday = work in the morning, school from 1-9:30, Thursday = school 1-9:30, Friday and Saturday = work. 5 classes and a clinic shift this semester. Oh and Student Council.
I'm thinking of blowing the popsicle stand that is Jersey for my bday... I will have a better idea this week.
Am I really unapproachable? This is probably stupid, seeing as most of you don't know me in real life. I feel like maybe I am too walled up and stand offish... seeing as even my family goes to other people to discuss me.
That's enough. I will find some positivity. Anyone have some ambien? Or painkillers for the insane amounts of pain that are soon to be upon me with my period... how I love endometriosis. Stress does not help it. My abdomen may explode this month. Oooooo and watch it happen on one of the first days of school. Kick me while I'm down some more life... cunt rag.
I'm not in a good place. I am miserable. I try really hard not to show it. I do a pretty good job I think.
I always thought my mouth would get me punched in the face... not involve me in an asinine, circuitous conversation. Yeah I said it... asinine. You hear me? A completely unneeded conversation. I'm pretty sure there is no love left in my body or heart to give to someone or anyone.
I need to start writing again I really do.
My schedule starting Monday: Monday = work, Tuesday and Wednesday = work in the morning, school from 1-9:30, Thursday = school 1-9:30, Friday and Saturday = work. 5 classes and a clinic shift this semester. Oh and Student Council.
I'm thinking of blowing the popsicle stand that is Jersey for my bday... I will have a better idea this week.
Am I really unapproachable? This is probably stupid, seeing as most of you don't know me in real life. I feel like maybe I am too walled up and stand offish... seeing as even my family goes to other people to discuss me.
That's enough. I will find some positivity. Anyone have some ambien? Or painkillers for the insane amounts of pain that are soon to be upon me with my period... how I love endometriosis. Stress does not help it. My abdomen may explode this month. Oooooo and watch it happen on one of the first days of school. Kick me while I'm down some more life... cunt rag.
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theconservative:
Thank you, ma'am. Same for yours.
theconservative:
Oh, and by the way, although the use of "wicked" does sound Bostonian, i like its use in everyday conversation. "My guy's wicked smaat"
