I am fucking miserable. This was the eulogy I wrote and read In it's entirety... minus the sobbing and crying and breaks for tears and to find composure.
Uncle Wayne 9.21.54 3.15.10
My Uncle Wayne was the strongest man I have ever known he bit horses and fought bears with his bare hands or so the stories go. He was a big man with the gentlest heart and the purest soul. He had a story for every occasion, a joke to fit every mood (and usually to offend), a laugh that could fill the biggest room and a contagious smile. He had a stubborn streak a mile wide and a way with foul words two things I like to think I inherited from him. He was courageous, honorable, a dreamer, loving, selfless, humorous, a jokester and he could build anything with his hands.
He was the living example of what I should look for in a man and believe me the bar is now set very high. He was the closest person to a father I have ever had and accepted me when it felt like no one else did. He loved me with no questions asked and I hope I have made him proud and it makes me happy to know that he came to rely on me when he was at his worst.
On Monday, I came home to the farm and curled up on his bed, wrapped in his scent, surrounded by his belongings and I was finally able to rest. He was larger than life, a giant of a man. No longer the man that made me cry and hide behind my mother he was one hell of a scary man for a 5 year old. Your thunderous arrival down the stairs, your quick wit, your boisterous laugh, your crazy stories, and even your unusually quiet speaking voice are things I will miss the most. Uncle Wayne, I had the honor of being the so-called, self-proclaimed black sheep of the family with you and I will carry that legacy with me.
My heart aches knowing you will not be at the farm when I get there. I will miss you with every fiber of my being. You were supposed to walk me down the aisle and tell all the embarrassing stories of my childhood. One day I was finally going to win our 2 decades long contest and have longer hair than you. I was getting close but you officially win. You touched so many lives and I hope you know that so many people loved you. I am thankful you are no longer in pain and I am thankful you were surrounded by the people who loved you most when you slipped away from us. I thank my lucky stars everyday you were in my life I am a better person because of you.
And I know you are watching over us, keeping us safe. Nothing will ever be the same without you but the memories will keep me strong at my weakest. Thank you Uncle Wayne, for never compromising who you are and teaching me that it is okay to embrace the quirks. I know he is sitting up there laughing at us all in our dressy clothes. I am mad right now, at the world; at what happened; at things that make no sense but damnet Uncle Wayne, I love you. Forever and Always.
Uncle Wayne 9.21.54 3.15.10
My Uncle Wayne was the strongest man I have ever known he bit horses and fought bears with his bare hands or so the stories go. He was a big man with the gentlest heart and the purest soul. He had a story for every occasion, a joke to fit every mood (and usually to offend), a laugh that could fill the biggest room and a contagious smile. He had a stubborn streak a mile wide and a way with foul words two things I like to think I inherited from him. He was courageous, honorable, a dreamer, loving, selfless, humorous, a jokester and he could build anything with his hands.
He was the living example of what I should look for in a man and believe me the bar is now set very high. He was the closest person to a father I have ever had and accepted me when it felt like no one else did. He loved me with no questions asked and I hope I have made him proud and it makes me happy to know that he came to rely on me when he was at his worst.
On Monday, I came home to the farm and curled up on his bed, wrapped in his scent, surrounded by his belongings and I was finally able to rest. He was larger than life, a giant of a man. No longer the man that made me cry and hide behind my mother he was one hell of a scary man for a 5 year old. Your thunderous arrival down the stairs, your quick wit, your boisterous laugh, your crazy stories, and even your unusually quiet speaking voice are things I will miss the most. Uncle Wayne, I had the honor of being the so-called, self-proclaimed black sheep of the family with you and I will carry that legacy with me.
My heart aches knowing you will not be at the farm when I get there. I will miss you with every fiber of my being. You were supposed to walk me down the aisle and tell all the embarrassing stories of my childhood. One day I was finally going to win our 2 decades long contest and have longer hair than you. I was getting close but you officially win. You touched so many lives and I hope you know that so many people loved you. I am thankful you are no longer in pain and I am thankful you were surrounded by the people who loved you most when you slipped away from us. I thank my lucky stars everyday you were in my life I am a better person because of you.
And I know you are watching over us, keeping us safe. Nothing will ever be the same without you but the memories will keep me strong at my weakest. Thank you Uncle Wayne, for never compromising who you are and teaching me that it is okay to embrace the quirks. I know he is sitting up there laughing at us all in our dressy clothes. I am mad right now, at the world; at what happened; at things that make no sense but damnet Uncle Wayne, I love you. Forever and Always.
dpgc44:
He will be able to watch over you all the time. He will be with you in spirit protecting you. Times like this when you find out what you are made of. I am proud of you to be this strong woman with never ending love. It's funny while I am writing this I am reading through the rest of your blog and its exactly what you are writing.
