Sometimes I get so mad at the people I love. Isn't it funny how you feel the most anger toward the people closest to you? I remember when I was a kid and my dad would slap my hand, it didn't really hurt, but I would bawl because of how much it shocked me that he would dare! Now it's just like I love my friends and my family, and it shocks me that some of them would use what they know will drive me right to the edge of like, blind rage, so precisely when they're mad. And of course, I'm not any better half the time. Because I will fire right back with what I know gets to them. And it just turns into a cat and dog fight, like out of the cartoons where you just see a cloud of dust. I'm fighting with my best online friend right now. Her name is Natalie, and she is one of the most incredible women I have ever met in my entire life, online or off. Just as sweet and caring and intelligent as you could ever want. But sometimes, and it's usually about a roleplaying game, we get so mad at each other, that we just rip into each other until one or the other feels like crying. And because this incredible woman means so much to me, I feel so horrible afterward. Every single time. Without fail. That's why we're gonna let Remy out to play for a day or two. Remy's quoted the Punisher before, you know. "I don't smile much. I don't smile ever. If I did, this would be one." And that just fits me right now because I made someone who means the world to me, feel like the lowest of the low. How much do I suck?
Remy
Remy