relapsed_eric

so i can feel the energy welling up inside me like a reservoir that is close to spilling over...the car accident is behind me, i have resumed working out, the ringing in my ears and my headaches are subsiding, i am working on repairing my credit, i have built up my design/audio studio at home to the point where my bed is looking like it is going to have to move, i am not settling for being stagnant and i am loving the sun returning to the land.
i feel wiser these days, like i can accomplish more with less and less effort, and that time is on my side for the first time since i have tried my hand at complete sobriety. The distance i have surrounded myself from my social "pack" has resulted in me reading and learning on a daily basis to the first time since i was in college. when i go to the art museum and watch anime i can actually feel my mind considering how each stroke another artist has laid will channel itself through my mind/hands. all in all, i feel rather fearless, reckless, yet calm and meditative.
i guess i should be thankful for these outlets i have found...and finally showing myself all the love i have been trying to give everyone else for years without feeling reciprocated. my project list has grown to the point where i am able to juggle enough to fill every moment of my time, i almost see myself not having enough time to care that i am working from sun up to sundown.