recoveringmale

sorry to hear that you are feeling so down. nothing is ever as real as it seems, but even that seems like bullshit philosophy when you're in the middle of it all. it is raining here in portland. i'm back from thailand - victoria and dylan are coming over tonight for curry, and i'm trying to start the new year with no laundry. call when/if you're back in town?

Yeah what she said...

ugh hangovers make me cry.

You're right. I will not focus on whether or not I should want certain things. Instead, I will accept that I want them, and I want them badly.

You quoting song lyrics again?

Let it ride.

I think hun that a lot of it has to do with the fact that when you go see a band or an artist of any type in person... that close.. it makes it real.

Just listening to a CD... the words and music can be inspiriring by themselves but they arn't there to touch.. or to blow kisses at you. Once you see them face to face they become flesh and blood, and not so diffrent from yourself... you start realizing that maybe your own dreams arn't so far fetched... all it seems to take is a beautiful thought and a little determination.

It was a great show, bittersweet.. but great nonetheless. I'm glad you were there, and sorry I wasn't in many ways. There's no rhyme or reason to my journal. But I think yours would be more readable with clear breaks. It's too much text to read in one block sometimes, and I find myself reading the whole thing over a number of days.

I'm trying to find us a more reliable practice space. I'm also going to get my hands on a new pair of powered PA monitors. Something more durable to move around. We need to play more. Lots more. I have some ideas but I don't think my place is too good to practice at. My neighbors are getting shitty. I don't blame them.

My friend Devo is back in town. We'll all have to meet up to see if there's any cross compatibility. He'd be an awesome addition to our collective, if he was so inclined. Usually him and I play together lots, he can be a bit of a muse for me.

Anyways. I'm rambling. We'll talk more soon. I'm getting out of the funk I've been in and am getting ready to conquer Portland. Your Wicked Little Town dream is within grasp.

If you had a button sweet heart you wouldnt be human... and that all by itself would be horribly sad. YOu determination is part of what makes you a great person... you'll get thorugh it.. I'm sure you hear that all the time.

Thank you for the movie.. I had a great time... the color scemes were brillant... I tink that and the water scene were my favroite parts.

How is the Amanda adaptation going?

yes, I've seen that picture many times.

He makes a compelling argument.. but.. but.. I feel so broken.

I just wish that both sides, especially the Republicans, would just fight cleanly. As Ohio was the main point of contention, it's interesting to note that they used voting machines in Ohio. Voting machines made by Diebold, known Bush supporters who actually threw a campaign party for him four years ago.

As an acquaintance of mine said yesterday, this election was bought and sold a year and a half ago.

I know.. the jacket is oh so pretty... I almost spent my hair dye money on it.

The pictures turned out wonderful hun.. great bra, it reminds me of Dots the candy for some odd reason.

never before has one of my undergarments been put to such good use

How far would you go for contentment?
-I'm fine with moments of contentment, but overall I think being content is akin to being dead. I think the state of being human doesn't really allow contentment, we have emotions and we have drives that push us forward. There's plenty of time to be content in the ground.

How far would you go for happiness?
-I'll know it when I find it.

What makes you feel alive?
-Sound vibrating off of my body.

The sad thing is that I love "Legally Blonde." I even broke down and bought the DVD.

alivan's, they're the only ones who'd ship in time for halloween.

I fucking love that shirt. That's godlike.