How can I overcome this problem without therapy?
When I was younger, my father told me I was a moron because my school work wasn’t done after only 20 minutes.
He was a verbally abusive father and while he never hit me he did go after my two older half brothers
Fast forward a few years (2010-2011) my parents had been divorced for over a decade but somehow I still feel inadequate despite my mom’s bf being a super supportive father figure. My then gf was I thought the world of.
I had scraped together money and bought her an engagement ring and the night I planned on purposing I showed up at her apartment when she was at work and was going to cook her dinner and have a romantic setup on the dining room table.
I arrived to find her in bed naked and there was a used condom in the trash can and from that day forth I have been a recluse and feel unworthy of lasting love.
I know my mom loves me but I am so ready to move past this but can’t afford therapy