So. Through the help and generosity of
_Ifrit_ my account stays active and I get to continue to plague the silliness board!
Now I post totally non masculine thing I wrote in hopes of luring the school gal into something more than pals. This is a warning I do not want to lose anymore man cards. Women please give me opinions on whether this is totally lame or would get you to confess feelings or if it just makes me sounds like a creepy stalker. Advice welcome.
SPOILERS! (Click to view)
I see you appear and my heart flutters. I remember the day that I first saw you in September. I was confused by a note and so were you. We stood around and talked as the crowd gathered. I couldnt keep my eyes from you, to me nothing else mattered.
I think you sensed it that I couldnt break my gaze. I hoped you werent offended. I asked if you would mind if I sat beside you, my nerves were just as jell-o. You told me it was fine, and there I took my post for months.
I walked you to class. You never turned me away. I asked if we could study together and we met at a coffee shop to spend half the day. We spoke of homework and of ourselves the first time seemed awkward by my heart fluttered on. The second time I ask if you wanted to be shown around, you got into my car, and I toured around town.
I showed you Google and the amphitheater on Shoreline. I showed you the giant sweets and the strange Google bikes and in the end I took you back to your car, around the corner and up the street from the coffee house where we came to meet.
We sat for a moment in silence, not a word. You said something and I replied the moment was awkward but eventually you got out, you walked to your car. I watched you get inside. I cursed my cowardice for not reading a sign. I debated and wondered if there was meaning in that silence, if I was to be an aggressor, if I was to be the man.
I tore myself up at the thought of things I may have lost. A week later as I walked you to class, you asked what I was taking next, you asked me to take the same classes with you. A chance again, a chance to see. I leapt at the opportunity.
Weeks go by we do a project together then we do two. I try and show interest, but in lines of productive due.
School is my focus. My past has made this primary. My exes have bogged down my time and to this you agree. We share a path this I know.
You come to my house for a meal. You come early you ask me to show you how to cook; you push me aside and steal over my efforts to impress. You show me your colors, you show me you.
You impress me ten fold my heart flutters and patters. It beats hard in my chest. You tell me you want to return, you want to come again, but you tell me days after, not yet maybe later.
I offer to take you to a museum for a day. I want to know you in each and every way. You shoot me down you tell me well go to another a place were we can do a quick run to get credit at a fast pace. I am mixed up. I am not sure.
I see new pictures pop up and my heart beats renewed. We will see as time goes by which way this goes, until then I wait I silence wondering why I am such a coward.
