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I feel lame. Not the uncool kind of lame, just lame as in immmobile and unable/unwilling to do anything. I thought it was just me, but a few friends have asked lately if I'm ok. I suppose I am, because nothing seems particularly wrong with me. The phrase that keeps going on in my mind is "I could use a friend", but I don't know why. I wouldn't know what to say if I had a friend to pour my heart out to. There's nothing to pour at the moment. This is just weird.

I go back to work tomorrow after a 1-week vacation. The longer I'm away from work, the more anxious I get about going back. Needless to say, tomorrow morning will not be fun. I'll manage though. After all, it's just 2 days, then I get a weekend. I also have another bit of time off coming in just a few weeks, so that's comforting. Then school is just a few weeks away. I need something to distract me, something to transplant me mentally into another state of mind.

I also want some play.