god damnit. i feel so fucking miserable right now. i still feel like i might be manic, as i have for a while. of course, it's also possible that i'm being a worthless pitiful drama queen. king. what the hell ever. in any case, i feel like shit.
ok, so...it's time for me to give an update on my life. here goes:
we have sales quotas that we have to meet every two weeks. the company rules state that if a salesperson does not meet these quotas for three consecutive pay periods, he or she may very well be terminated. up until about thursday, i was deathly frightened that this rule would've been... Read More
god DAMN my head hurts. the final count for last night was something like four shots of cuervo, a whole bottle of grape maddog, half a bottle of peaches n cream maddog, and several beers. i woke up this morning and nick was gone..which is fine. "this morning," of course, actually means 1:15 in the afternoon. oh well, i still need to sober up some.... Read More
i'm about to go play some late night soccer and then split a bottle of tequila with two other fellas. at least i'm getting out of the house..right?!
ok..so plans changed slightly. after playing soccer, we split what turned out to be about half a bottle of tequila and half a bottle of southern comfort. after a few shots of those, that wasn't enough, so... Read More
seriously, i need to join some sort of sport, i'm a jock at heart. a few people at work are going to form a volleyball leauge, we'll see how that goes, i think it should be cool.
drinking. eating homemade tacos. listening to default (at the moment). i..actually, i can't say that i hate my life at the moment. i'm not in a very depressed mood. i do wish that i could be with someone whose company i would enjoy, though. this is not to be confused with "i hate being alone," mind you. i'm sure i could spend my time with... Read More
Thats good that you are not willing to settle. I know that you will find the person that you are looking for, or not looking for. It is always better to be with someone because you truely like them, not just because you are bored.
as much as we are alike... i just don't know if we can be friends.. you like the avalance... and i'm from detriot... it just doesn't work Seriously, you are cool.
look, man. this is the way i see things. you can't hate life. the mind is a wonderful creation. you can, however, hate whatever that wretched interloper "self" is making you do at any moment.
consider: all i'm forced to do is feed this bastard his daily vices to keep him happy. otherwise, he starts fucking with me and i can't get any work done.
it could be worse. always consider that. tonight, i went out to el myr, and watched some poor "yeah, come on!" bastard urinate on himself (metaphorically and otherwise) and i realized i'm not nearly as discomposed as him. drink correctly, but never let that wretch of a "self" control the mind. this is what can make someone happy or disgusted.
go to the library with a fifth of wild turkey and demand to be given a copy of hunter s. thompson's "the great shark hunt".
once you have it, proceed to drink as much as you can before they realize and try to kick you out.
once they try to kick you out, yell that they're all a bunch of communists as you run out the door with the book, while throwing the bottle at any who follow you to give you more time to get away.
keep in mind, i'm not saying you won't end up in court somehow....i'm just offering ideas for a boring saturday afternoon.
i still need a new job. i need to try harder to find one. oy.
Anna is sitting on top of Hampton's cage, looking like she wants to..well..eat him. but when i take him out of his cage and put them face to face, she doesn't seem to care. who knows what's going on in her mind. or his, for that matter.