raiven66

So I was thinking today...and in the last 16 years, I have had lots of moments of happiness. Days and times of real joy in my life. And I started crying. Because I realized how true my thought process was..."days and times" of real joy. "moments" of happiness. They have all been interruptions in an otherwise blur of complete sadness.

When is that going to...
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okay, so i'm super mad. Not only am I on my deathbed with some weird sickness. And I have to o 2 quizzes, 2 labs and a paper today...but it's snowing outside. How fucked up is that ...

Okay...so up front, I'm still going to be okay. I'm going to be positive as much as possible and I'm going to NOT be a crazy not-girlfriend. But I have to vent real quick...

So the ex-gf is here with the man that i want to spend my life with. I'm sorta okay with it because I know that he needs to be sure that...
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I love this dude ... i dont' know if I posted this before...but it deserves a second one if so...


Buddy Wakefield

I hate being the SARC (sexual assault response coordinator). I'm thinking of self-eliminating. I had another potential case come up today. Of course the victim doesn't want to report it, as usual. As a "survivor" (which I actually don't think I am because my assassination still runs my life), I know that we can't force her to report it. She actually only told her supervisor...
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wow...im a lot more drunk than i should be fofr a monday night...and all alone in the house ... yet again...

One last vein to poke made it too dark to see this
Scenery slips then line up to go in the ground and leave us
So repeat this till I'm sick and I won't feed this
To my little girl who kept me in this world to beat this
As a little kid taught to follow Jesus
Get to the front of the line I'm...
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So I'm at a friends watching her pets while she and the fam are out of town camping. It's a bg house and I feel kinda lonely here. She has 2 dogs and 2 cats so that helps a bit, but I'm used to my little apartment now. I've never really liked being in big houses. Prolly something to do with growing up in such...
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"Faith is the strength by which a shattered world shall emerge into light."

So I'm in the mountains and it is totally awesome. Estes Park in Colorado. It is so beautiful and serene. Maybe I'll stay here forever ...

Nah, I'll miss Jonas too much

i wanna be home with my familia ... it would make my life so much easier right now to be near them.

On the other hand, I always have The New Kids. Listening to Summertime right now and it made me smile. Wow, I'm a huge dork ...