I just found out someone I went to high school with died August 8th. I don't know what happened to her. I wasn't particularly close with her or anything. The only real memory I have of her is taking a class with her and later that year she told me that she respected that I wore whatever I wanted and didn't seem to care what others thought of me. She seemed really sweet. It sounds like she killed herself but I don't know for sure. She was posting some stuff on facebook the night she died and it sounds like she was maybe coming to peace with something. Then the next post is by friends and family saying she will be in their thoughts and prayers. I can't imagine how her twin sister must be feeling.
It's strange how life works isn't it?
Since high school (middle school even) so much has changed in everyone's lives. So many people have died, had kids, gotten married, moved, etc. I've only been out of high school since '07. It seems such a huge amount of change for 21-22 year olds. I don't really know what to make of it. I guess it just makes me thankful for the choices I've made and the life I have. I'm not a particularly religious person, but somedays I really do feel blessed. It's a strange thing to see how everyone's has their own direction and how it plays out. I'm thankful that I have a good job,a wonderful husband, great friends (even if I don't see them very often or in the case of SG; meet them). Sometimes I forget the journey to get here and focus too much on where I'm going. I need to appreciate that it could have ended for me a long time ago-and there were times I felt it should.
It's a sobering thought.
To end this blog, I'm going to quote one of Nicci Henning's last posts.
Written at 8:12am August 8th (the day of her death)
My deepest fear is not that I am inadequate. My deepest fear is that I am powerful beyond all measure. It is our light, not our darkness that frightens us the most...I was born to manifest the glory of God that is in me. It's not just in me, it's in all of us. And when I let my own light shine, I unconsiously give others permission to do the same.
Written at 8:15am- Three minutes later...
Patience and perseverance have a magical effect before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish. A little knowledge that acts is worth infinitely more than much knowledge that is idle.
Rest in peace, Nicci.
Jan. 8th, 1988 - Aug. 8th 2010
It's strange how life works isn't it?
Since high school (middle school even) so much has changed in everyone's lives. So many people have died, had kids, gotten married, moved, etc. I've only been out of high school since '07. It seems such a huge amount of change for 21-22 year olds. I don't really know what to make of it. I guess it just makes me thankful for the choices I've made and the life I have. I'm not a particularly religious person, but somedays I really do feel blessed. It's a strange thing to see how everyone's has their own direction and how it plays out. I'm thankful that I have a good job,a wonderful husband, great friends (even if I don't see them very often or in the case of SG; meet them). Sometimes I forget the journey to get here and focus too much on where I'm going. I need to appreciate that it could have ended for me a long time ago-and there were times I felt it should.
It's a sobering thought.
To end this blog, I'm going to quote one of Nicci Henning's last posts.
Written at 8:12am August 8th (the day of her death)
My deepest fear is not that I am inadequate. My deepest fear is that I am powerful beyond all measure. It is our light, not our darkness that frightens us the most...I was born to manifest the glory of God that is in me. It's not just in me, it's in all of us. And when I let my own light shine, I unconsiously give others permission to do the same.
Written at 8:15am- Three minutes later...
Patience and perseverance have a magical effect before which difficulties disappear and obstacles vanish. A little knowledge that acts is worth infinitely more than much knowledge that is idle.
Rest in peace, Nicci.
Jan. 8th, 1988 - Aug. 8th 2010
suispud1:
a very touching, very thought provoking blog...thank you for sharing