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i'm kinda freaking out right now. just too much to do. wwaaaay too much and here i am fucking procrastinating. it's almost a paralyzing fear right now. i have so much to do before the end of the year to keep my business going. wish me luck! but tomorrow is t-day, so that is a nice break for a day which i have to take...
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alright tons of shit to do today but i promised myself to write this thing more often. i have ot take care of babies, fix my flat tire, and then head to the city. i need to eat too, that's real important these days. so i have an interview with this photographer looking for assistants this afternoon. called me up after seeing my flyer at...
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well i decided i am finally am going to keep a journal even tho nobody reads this shit (except for sweet loretta and some people here and there). gives me a reason to get on here and see some fine ass which is good downtime for me right now. i have been working pretty much non-stop for sooooo fucking long i cannot believe it. cannot...
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The 23rd Qualm

(Written by a retired Methodist minister.)


Bush is my shepherd; I dwell in want.

He maketh logs to cut down in national forests.

He leadeth trucks into the still wilderness.

He restoreth my fears.

He leadeth me in paths of international disgrace for
his ego's sake.

Yea, though I walk through the valley of pollution and
war.

I will find no exit,...
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Happy drug appreciation day!

i finally made it to the beach yesterday. it was soooooo nice.

i still have not been to the beach for christ's sake. yesterday it rained all day. t oday is sunshine but not ver y warm. i think i must go to the beach anyway. but first to buy postcards. time to send postcards.

went to a pretty fucking awesome party tonight. an anniversary for mega models miami. holy shit that was some sensory overload. talked to quite a few girls about shooting. word is the season has been quite slow so far. that makes it much easier to do test shoots for my portfolio. the bad thing about it is that it won't be easy to get assisting...
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So I finally went out to a decent party last night (not that there aren't A LOT of decent parties over here). i have just been busy settling in. it has been a month now though, which is kinda crazy since i might be here for just 2 more. i new it would fly by, but this is weird. maybe now that i'm pretty settled...
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quick update. today was my first day photo-assisting again and it was a little crazy but nothing horrible happened. i get a little rusty and then nervous becauasei'm rusty, which compountds the problem. anyway i'm on for tomorrow too, so good stuff. we're doing stills for this reality show with irene marie models. funny how i just ran into a few of those girls on...
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finaaaally i've got internet and my old mac back in action, so here's an update. i haven't used this thing since september. i' m getting settled into my new apartment now and it is coming along. not close to ready for entertaining, but soon. oh yesss. new year's here was pretty mellow because i just hung out with my friend prima. went to dinner, watched...
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