quinne

ugh
i didnt mean to hurt my brother inlaws feelings
its not either of them that make me feel like such shit
its my mother inlaw
i never wrote anything on here about it but a few months ago there was a "fight/misunderstanding" between austin and i and she got so fucking involved and accused me of things and lied about me and to me
and she has never said sorry for any of it
she just acts like nothing happened
and i hate that because she was cruel to me and i cant pretend anymore like its all ok because its fucking not
it really feels like nobody here gives a fuck about me
well maybe not nobody , theres a good 2 or 3 that might
i dont want presents
i want a real "im sorry"
but ill never get that
i miss canada
i miss the people who would never let me feel pain
never accuse , lie , hurt
i love my brothers here, i reallllllly do , and my words are somtimes too simple on here and can be easily misunderstood
i didnt mean fuck my tennessee family
i really just meant i miss my own family who i havent seen since july
i feel like shit but i dont knwow how to explain it without crying to them
and i cant say anything to mother inlaw because shes pretty loopy
i hate that she accused me of being selfish and lying when i know good and well shes been doing just that for a long time to all 3 of her kids
ok here goes
shes fucking 2 of thir friends
and shes hardly good at hiding it
once again im sure my words will come back to haunt me but im tired of all this
merry christmas sg
i think ill stay home tonight and drink and cry

ho ho ho