quadishtu

i want to be a prostitute no, let me revise that. i want to be a companion, courtizan, an instructor, perhaps, a sacred whore.

i'm not talking about going down to the corner and waiting for a car to drive by to give a quick blowjob around the corner or something, this would be special. this wouldn't have to be a life-changing event, though, ultimately, it would be in some way or another, but this wouldn't just be sex for the sake of sex. if that makes sense. it would be, but... it wouldn't. i don't think i'm making sense.

this wouldn't be for just anyone, and it wouldn't even have to be for money, exactly, gifts would be nice... but, really, this would be for experiences, a mutual benefit for all. this would be about teaching, also. this would be about healthy sexuality. this would be about not sheltering ourselves from ourselves. this would be about discovering self through sexual expression. this would be about a lot of things.

i have more. i have all these thoughts buzzing around my head tonight.

i need sleep. i have to get up at 6 tomorrow. i still need to go over this scene a few more times, for memorization purposes. dammit.

i barely got any homework done tonight. i didn't really have much, but that's not the point. just memorizing this and typing up world civ notes (semi-optional, i can do it later). i didn't do either, however. i'm a bum.

i need to think up an ethical topic to write about and research, and i think sexuality is what i'm gonna focus on, but what concerning sexuality? sexual expression? i don't know.

i want tattoos. i want piercings. nowwwwwwwwwwwww!!!!!!!!!!!111111111oneone-to-the-oneone11