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I haven't the slightest idea on what i'm going to do after graduation in December. I'm not trying to brag but this is one of the first times in my life where I don't know where i'm going or what i'm going to do. I've always had a plan. Now the problem is too many plans, too many options. I suppose it's a good thing to have many options. Do I want to go to grad school in the states, if i do how the hell am I going to pay for it? Do I go to grad school overseas? Do I get a job here in the states? If I do, no Lisa. Do I get a job over in Europe or Australia? I probably stand a better chance over there then here. In Europe I could be with Lisa. And I wouldn't need my car so that's extra money. Do I go active military? Do I get deployed and not have a choice? Yeah, I know what if this, what if that. I have to think things through in order weigh my options and make the best choice. But right now i'm at a loss. The one thing I do know is that the time to move on is approaching. When I go out I and I see a lot of people I know, it makes me feel uncomfortable. For some strange reason I take comfort in feeling alone in a crowded room. Don't ask me why that is, I don't have a clue.